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You Do not Know How Precious It Is To Have A Body, Do You?

Being Able To Touch And Feeling Warmth.
You Have A Voice That Someone Else Can Hear And
You Have People To Hear Your Voice.
You Can Look At Someone And Smile Together.
I Envy You ...
(Shin Ji Hyun - 49 Days "Korean Drama")

I just sat there staring at the rain rain from my bedroom window. I used to love the rain. When he came down to wet the earth, it felt so cool. The aroma and his voice can reassure the heart. And the rain that has brought me to him. But now every rain comes down, I always scared .. remembered that day and came back to realize that I had made her go too far.
Losing him feels like the end of my life. Because losing him means I lost my father, mother, sister, lover, my best friend and myself. It never occurred to me that one day I will lose him. And I realize that all this time he has in my life.

Loving someone more than your own life is a mistake, because when he goes and leaves your life, then right then you will think to destroy your own life. But when there is someone who loves you more than yourself, it is a blessing that is never priceless ... This is what I feel ... And could you understand ??
Sister ... I miss you ..

Today is exactly 3 years he's gone, but it's still fresh in my memory. The series of events that day continue to play in the mind, like choosing mode on in memory.
I wish I could repeat that day ..
No..
I wish I could wipe that day .. Maybe you're still here .. laugh with me .. do a lot of things ..

The day was like today, the rain came down to greet. It felt very cool and the smell was very comforting. But the coolness of the day was not able to get rid of my anger.
I was so angry at him. The thing I really regret until now. I even cursed myself, because my mistake I lost you.

We were fighting when he was riding his bike at normal speed. But the rain at that time made the road becomes slippery. I made him unable to concentrate properly. He tried to calm me down, but my emotions had blinded my eyes and heart.

"You know .. This time I can not forgive you. You never let me help you".
"Forget it.."
"I hate you ...." The words came out of my mouth without ever I think. He turned back and saw me .. highlighted his eyes radiate a sense of disappointment. Why I feel will lose him. But I never had the opportunity to say sorry to him.

Suddenly the bright lights flashed through our bodies. The headlights of a car from the bend of the road that went very fast, heading towards us. Hearing the sound of the horn along with the roar of the wheel of the car .. I can only shout .. and reflex, he bend the bike to avoid.However it seems too late.Roda motor we slip and hit the guardrail road.Car ahead of us can not control the direction of its speed.
Instantly then, I just felt my body thrown and drifted. My body hit something .. and then all suddenly it became dark ...

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February 12,2011
Why are you pensive ?? Is not it raining today today ?????????????????? Do you miss me ??
There's nothing I can do, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I did not mean to make you like this..make you continue to feel guilty ..
Really..I never hate you.I am suffering to see you like this.
If I can, I really want to hug you, stroke your hair, wipe your tears. Do whatever you can to laugh .. At least make you smile ..
But what can i do