The forest from uncertainty

Talking with IRL people lately has helped me a lot and developed my crypto resolve a little more because, there are just so many smart people who know almost nothing about any of this at all. That sounds like an incorrect statement of course but what I find is that people tend to stick to what they know because that is where they are comfortable, where they can dominate and feel powerful. Uncertainty is a risk when the ego is searching for validation.

Uncertainty is not what humans are designed to live in, which is why we are so talented at creating tools to provide various forms of shelter, security from variation. While security itself might be an illusion we subscribe to, the quest for security can still be a driving force and the feeling of security can provide comfort. Feeling secure does not mean being secure.

It takes a certain kind of personality to willingly enter into uncertainty and most likely do not have it, at least not in every domain. Most people are not risk taking, most are not early adopters, most are not fearless in the face of failure, most are not going to change.

While we are constantly shifting, very few people change in this world, yet a few people change the world. It is the world changers that are often the ones who are fearless, it is the early adopters who are the risk takers willing to see where the fearless tread. Eventually, it is the mainstream flow that trickle through the trailblazer's paths and eventually build highways - once the places they want to go have already been founded, settled, developed and provided for.

I am not fearless. Nor am I risk taking by nature but, I am learning. I must learn because I have come to believe enough about the future that if I am unable to adapt in adversity, I am going to be unable to take care of those I care for, or myself. Adversity has been somewhat of a travel companion for me, which means I have had some opportunity to become familiar.

Not that I have often used that opportunity well. Too much of my life has been spent in the various forms of distraction in a bid to avoid the various forms of suffering I might have been experiencing. Rather than deal with what I must, I turned a blind I to it and my attention away from it - a losing strategy every time.

Now, I am taking some risks but of course, nothing that I am not willing to lose completely, as is the investment advice that gets given as a protection from future blame and liability - "this is not financial advice". I added up what I have bought into crypto over the last 1.5 years and realized, it is pretty substantial. On what I have bought and even with cost averaging across buy points, I am in the red. Quite in the red.

However, once I factor in Steem earnings, I am doing fine. Considering the hours of wok and effort I have poured in, if I was forced to sell now I would be disappointed but, the gain wouldn't be insignificant in a lump sum. Averaging it across hours spent, it would look quite pathetic.

But, I am not forced to sell because I have considered other factors of my life and designed it in as much of a way as possible that I can cover our living expenses and even if it is only just covered, covered it is. Yes, II am also behind at times on some bills.

Speaking of that, my wife sent me a message while at work today saying that the neighbour had accidentally got some of our mail and opened one before she realized the mix-up. It was a late notice and I think that my wife was embarrassed because of it. I am okay with it though, because I am doing the best I can and while not everything will likely work out, what I am working toward could be life changing in ways my wife does not understand.

For her, this is all some crazy scheme, she doesn't really get what I am doing or, what I am doing at all, but at least she does understand that I am going to be doing it for some time still. The time commitment is much like running a business but the return at the moment is far from worth the effort put into it, but I am doing something I enjoy, learning something I am interested in, interacting with people who are on a similar journey to myself, albeit often on very different paths and directions.

This is something that is pretty amazing about the Steem community, while everyone has their opinions and methods, it is near unanimous that everyone here wants Steem to succeed. While this doesn't mean that it will succeed, it does give a decentralized community a good chance of success as all will benefit from any one successfully developing and because everyone looks to create their own flavor in some way, there are many developing.

Uncertainty is still high whether the community will be able to survive far into the future, but in the short and mid-term things are looking good as people are actively growing their knowhow and preparing themselves for a future on Steem. This is the thing with the uncertainty aspect and a good way to deal with it. If you want something in the future, work toward that goal as if it is a given, only the steps need to be taken to get there.

The funny thing in life is that while most of us do not deal well with uncertainty, our lives keep proving that we live in it all of the time. At what point do we embrace it? Trailblazer I am not, early adopter I am learning to be - creator I am practicing each day. Will it lead to a life of plenty, a life where my bills are covered or a life where I lose it all?

There is only one way to find out which life it will be and, that is to live it.

Taraz
[ a Steem original ]