'' That’s the moment of enlightenment. That is the moment that you become for the first time an unconditioned, sane, really free human being. '' -Osho

Today’s walk in nature was just like no other.
I felt completely different.
And it reminded me of Eckhart’s words from two weeks before, as he said that '' when you first start awakening, there are briefs moment during which you find yourself not thinking. ''
I have been having these moments from time to time recently.
But today, as I took my hour long walk in the beautiful path near my neighborhood, I felt more than that.

I felt entirely immersed in my surroundings.
I was so connected with everything around me that I lost sight of the fact that I was carrying my big water bottle in my hands, my keys, my phone and my iPod.
And during the whole time of my walk, I felt as if I was not in my neighborhood.
I felt like I was somewhere else.
I felt like I was on vacation in another country.
It was a very unique kind of feeling.
But also one which I’ve never felt ever before.
It’s as if everything seemed new, even though I have walked there so many times before.
On my way back home, as I was walking back to my house, the route didn’t seem as familiar or repetitive.
It felt out of the ordinary.

My long term goal will definitely be to keep on carrying with me this deep sense of connectedness into the real world.

I believe that it is something possible to achieve.
While society is constantly offering us unlimited ways to numb our consciousness, for the first time in my 22 years of existence, I have never felt as happy as I do now.
And the best part is that it is also the first time during which I am not self-medicating myself through the use of love, food, drugs, sex, name it.
I purified myself from all of the unhealthy coping behaviors I had been engaging with, for as long as I can remember.

I feel so alive.
My love for nature and animals keeps on growing.
I’ve been talking to birds for all I know!
And some in my backyard have came close to me (maybe it’s a sign!)
I have always been someone of a compassionate nature, but I feel as if it keeps on expanding.
Now that I have seen through the illusions of society and of our false idea of the self, I see all of the possibilities and the things that I can do to reach this higher state of consciousness.
I have always been since a very young age, someone who loves solitude more than being with friends or people in general. However, recently, I’ve felt as this desire is becoming more amplified.
I crave being alone so much.
While walking outside, I get distracted by everything that surrounds me, whether it is the nature, the sound of my feet on the ground, the clouds in the sky.
They are no longer background items that I don’t come to notice.
They are everything.

I don’t even know how to describe how I feel at different times.
Sometimes, I find myself having moments during which I get butterflies in my stomach.
Usually, I get those when I’m excited to meet someone, or to go on a trip, a future event, simply put, when a special event is on its way.
What I don’t get, is that I have been having these butterflies while nothing exciting is on the way.

I simply see how fascinating and sacred every life form is.
Whether it is flowers, animals, or trees, I sense their powerful energy.
I also believe that the fact that I am aware that I could die at any time really helps me to deflate attachment.

All I know is that I will work hard to keep my inner peace and feeling of being deeply content with myself.
I don’t believe it is something one can grow bored of, as it is the most important thing one can have, at least in my own eyes.
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Oh and here is my glimpse of happiness that gets delivered to me almost daily 😊
(He did not run away 😍)

I even get them in winter time!
(Picture taken last february on valentines days)💓