Note to Self :-)❤️

shirleynpenalosa (63)in #christian-trail • 8 years ago

Good morning my sweet & grateful steemians & uloggers. I'm greatly troubled by my eldest, lately & up to this writing. I just finished checking on her and just finished tucking my youngest beside her. Done a short but heartfelt prayer for both before going back down to lay beside my nanay. Our house help went home (stay-out) this afternoon because her father is sick. So I need to stay down to keep company for my nanay.

(copied from FB, a post shared by a friend)

I checked on my cellphone, almost empty, so I plug to charge it. Still I couldn't sleep. I decided to browse from my FB, the only social media account I have after losing my friendster's password. I saw this and the message made me stop scrolling down. I praise God for His Holy Spirit. As I read each line, I was deeply moved and encourage to hope in the Lord. I find it so hard to see my eldest suffer from my failed marriage and as a mother, my heart is so crushed knowing that her anxiety reaction is recurring followed by acid influx. She was diagnosed to have been suffering from acute peptic disease, last Friday & yesterday. I feel her pain, her longing to see her dad. I'm just so blessed because she was able to talk to him yesterday. They agreed to go out and bond when he comes home.

I am praying that she will be recharged and rejuvenated and be well enough when they see each other again. I am hoping too that soon and very soon, he will be able to forgive me with what I've done in the past. As for me, I have moved on & forgiven him (no matter how painful it is for me). I have accepted the fact that he's no longer the man that I used to love, but he will always be the father of my daughters. I cannot do anything about that.

My eldest loved him so much & I will do everything for my children. I hope that one of these days, God will give us the opportunity to talk and have a proper closure.

In closing, my realization is this: I'm in trouble, yes...I'm in a difficult situation, yes...But I'm still blessed, by God's grace. It's been 3 long years and I couldn't do anything about my past. Many innocent people were greatly affected by the way I've responded towards my husband's infidelity. I've never responded the way God wanted me to, instead I took everything under legality. I know I've caused him pain too. But one thing is sure: GOD is my redeemer and I know God will always give me second chance to ask for my husband's forgiveness too. Forgiving him doesn't stop there. I need to humble myself too & ask for his forgiveness. I hope he will also forgive me.

Praise God for this post. I feel lighter inside my heart & I couldn't help my tears now rolling down my cheeks.

Good morning. :-)❤️

I am @sashley a.k.a. shirleynpenalosa, a recipient of God's love, mercy and grace. ❤️

Have a blessed and hoping to be a cool month of August 2018 everyone :-)❤️

I am forever grateful to God every day of my life for giving me everything that I need and praise Him all the more for not giving me everything I want. To God be all the honor, praise and glory ❤️ :-)

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