STEEM UNTALENTED FIRST CONTEST @ superpassinggoogle ¿WHO I AM?

Please excuse the bad english, i use a translator because my language is spanish.
This post is my entry @ superpassinggoogle Steemit Untalented Contest.

¿WHO I AM?

After reading here some life stories, I have encouraged myself to do mine, because it is not easy to bare the soul before others.

I must begin to tell you about my childhood, since it has been said that experiences from the womb and up to the first seven years of age, are the basis for the development of our personality. I was the first daughter of my father's third marriage. Arrive in this world before the seven months of gestation. My mother says that I had no skin, so I do not want to imagine what my look was like! I was very overprotected by my father, whom I loved with all my soul. Whenever he got home, there was a girl at the door waiting for him in her sandals and a cup of coffee prepared by herself. My mother says that the coffee sometimes turned very black and sometimes very sweet, but my father took everything as if it were the most delicious cup of coffee in the world. My mother taught me the letters, while I grew up in a safe environment.
full of love and surrounded by nature.

One unexpected day, my father did not come home. The days and years passed and I kept waiting for him. My mother told me that Daddy was gone to heaven. Then I looked at the sky and drew his face on the moon. I always kept the intense hope that he would come back.

What came next was totally opposite to what I had experienced. From overprotected it becomes completely unprotected. From abundance to lack. My mother was evicted from all property, so she went to the big city to work. I no longer had a mother who read me a story or a father who embraced me. Then came a stepfather with an abusive profile, totally opposite my father.

Why am I telling you all this?

Because this significantly affected the development of my personality, I grew up with many fears and insecurities and is what I work today to reissue.

This insecurity born in my childhood led to more abuse in adulthood.
My unconscious was looking for that lost love of the father!
perhaps pleasing everyone wanted to fill that void.

My boss took advantage of this. For more than 15 years I was with a double workload, with 5/5 performance evaluations but nothing new ascent. They were long days and nights of work like an octopus, doing many things at the same time, coming home so late and turning shattered. In the end I felt like in a prison, I wanted to move from charge and my boss I do not allow myself to go up or down. I felt so guilty for not being there for my children ... until one day my nerves exploded. Diagnosis anxiety and depression. I threw my work away. A job of more than 20 years in a prestigious financial institution. Affecting family economic stability.

So I'm just this, an anxious, depressed, tired and unsuccessful person? NO.

I am a good human being, sweet, romantic, dreamy and fighter by nature.
At 47 years of age i continue to study because i always love to learn something new. With much effort and support from my husband i have just finished my career as a nutritionist, and i am still studying a specialization in nutrition and cancer.I like to listen to music, literature, nutrition, vibro positively with nature, with the genuine smile of a child, with kind people, and above all I love every pore of my being. It does not matter if my colon is irritated, I love it. I accept myself and love myself as I am. I love my family, I love the tender look of my two dogs. I continue to work to handling emotions, I have faith in myself, I am still struggling, I am still breathing and vibrating with beautiful things, then everything around me will be reshaped.

Thanks for listening to me.

Sweethearts.

Sandra.