[gamedev] lost in da hood (gameguru) part 38

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20180828 01:58 pm ... tsk, so caught up that i forgot to vote again , i really gotta start setting a timer

20180827
13:43 pm

o i'm sitting down, well the gnomes are still on strike and steemit doesnt really pay enough to hire a maid (or an aide) or a ghost writer. Since i'm a one-man army with supreme divine time management skills fighting entropy around the house is alas something i can't avoid. I have my cat to take care of rats and vermin. And the ferrets who appeared recently seem to help out too. I found a present next to the table with the food tray when i woke up. Diligent young man, doing his part for the pack. Other than that i'm afraid that laundry just won't obey my molecular telekinesis yet so that's gonna have to be taken care of somehow ... the answer is NOT
"back to school"
the answer is NOT "masjen bij Lorraine"
matter o' fact i expect things to get worse and fall down to about zero income except this, which isnt one, is it ? not at this level it isnt so the rest of the year is gonna be REALLY low ..

so i dug it up, found it, and checked it out , it still works so i did two quick vids and hope to re-cap it a bit better tomorrow

almost makes me want to get back onto it, but since i already lack about six hours a day to do what i do i doubt that's gonna happen anytime soon

14:42 ...

vacuum cleaned whew i LOVE household, if you woulda let me do i could have been paying someone for this years ago ... they happy cos they can eat, me happy cos i have a life that goes above the first step of maslow.
Your iron grip does not allow for change, controlfreak-san, which means you go against the very laws of nature.
one does not simply
apply entropy to thermodynamics ... (one of those 'memes', right ? take a picture slap some words on it, call it a meme ? as opposed to a living breathing , GROWING viral idea which is actually what it means .. tsk ..)

that's it, yea that's it, well thats it for this i finished the section below with thats it before this one ... i'm not linear ... i'm a very ill-behaved particle when observed

uhuh ... p.s. ? 14:56, four minutes to spare, not bad,
no i'm not watching tv while, i'm helping myself to another serving of whatever your schools wouldnt, WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THERE ? "get a degree" ? piece o paper that says i was a nice doggie and i followed the path you set out ? and now i'm allowed to roll in the machine ...

don't ask me questions about god either, but i could recommend a book or two on the subject ... question ? what did god ever do for me ? if it's almighty then it's responsible for what and where i am ? testing me without my explicit permission is something i can't stand. Von Neumann logic applies.

I dont know, i havent met it ... i once did "something" but i was high on crack ... it looked a lot like Kali :)
well if anything, then maybe Plato's cave applies as always, perception is reality, if i would have been brought up religious i would have seen something different, like Kosh appeared like a different arch-angel to everyone when it showed its true self, depending on the background and conviction of the observer ?
or maybe i DID peek into a shadow dimension, as far as i know quantum theories don't exclude that yet. Anything is possible until proven otherwise(<-see why they always call me negative?), atheists are as dogmatic in denial without proof as believers are in believing without it.
That is my sincere opinion.

oh ? you will allow me ? will you now ?
whatever it is forget about it, if you try to force it its your loss, you already cost me 15 years of what i WOULD have done (mind the lack of "could" in always). I'm not here to save the world, i used to want to see it burn for a long, long time for what you did, or it ... but i simply no longer care.
It's your world, not mine. You broke it
you fix it ...

無

right then ...

leave it , NO i dont do some studying after a day ive had educational channels on all daylight in the background as audio, if i were to sit down and "study" itd take about 15 minutes before i dump it, if you stick me in your routine for snickers money, i'll go drinking afterwards and my day will amount to nothing but you having made money on my back ... dont make me repeat that every fucking time

and no, during darkness i prefer either silence xept my cat, 1970s jazz or funk or avant-garde jazz lately, i'm a bit through my metal phase, for a bit ... the whole universe oscillates, it would feel cramped to stick to one thing

got enough profile for a day ? i might be someone else tomorrow, i think you labelled it here and there so i can use that now

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I got busy on gameguru last year but i crashed out around december, mentally, and i really havent done much since, steemit seems to have revived some interest in a little scripting but at a snailpace and i only function well at night ...
I remember trying some of this when i just got on and i got WRECKED by nazicleaners and their team of enlightened content fascists with no own talent because it was "not steemit" content , so let's try again, its time-saving week i want my distroscipts to be ready so i can get back to the fun-stuff

like this a.o.

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well, euhm cough , i dont store pointless data in memory, for some reason it just evolved like that so i really didnt know where i should put the files anymore, however

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thank gods for logfiles ... at least i know systems so i can improvise my through a lot of the time , even if i don't have parrot- or jeopardy- brain, don't ask me when darwin was born or what the name of the boat was, but 'ill explain the theory to you if you like :)

i just put it back in place , checked it up and did a quick flyover and -by of "the hood" ... this is patch 1.14 and from the looks of it they havent had an update since :( (booo...) i think it looks pretty fine for an amateur like me who never did that before , but i havent gotten through the chores yet , imagine i hadnt spent all that time on auto-generating the distros by now ... id be running up and down the stairs with flash drives and copy pasting and what not. At least we're that far ... but i'm afraid for now

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looks like that's it for today, its not too long a vid, i really like the improvements on lighting and shading in 1.14 , almost .. ALMOST makes me want to tinker on it a little more, anb hour left in my day (minor routine, precious, i already have a hard time sleeping, i need this, and i dont need YOUR ROUTINE, your routine wrecks me, forget about it, its gonna be this or nothing ... you can test that, and find out that as always i'm serious about MY
life ...)
yea i dont think i actually gamed anything in weeks, dark souls is gathering dust, just put on some idle games that play themselves so i get my achievement fix yea ...

yea, ALL FUN AND GAMES, WE BALLIN', BRO
you wouldnt want me to sit here in my own filth, just so i can enlighten you with my lack of formal education in exchange for a dollar-cookie, right ?

O YOU WOULD , i forgot, nouvelle noblesse, are we ? well i'm not your fucking peasant (yea you know i cant speak for five minutes without something like that coming up, "just let it go" is not the answer either)

i'm gonna quote amanda again, i'm totally on fire, laundry done, washed the mat of offering rats, dishes done took out the trash, dinner's ready to turn on, i just need to clean some vacuum downstairs, the floor in the house and the whole of the kitchen have always been my major fields of study when it comes to entropy ... i even did my social duty, talked a little chat-talk on the weather with someone from down street while getting the mail out of the box, ...yyeaaaaaa,

well, i dare say i had worse days, now if you don't mind ... the vacuum cleaner doesnt accept my attempt at disney-mouse wizardry on it either ... DANG ...
get a wife ? FOR THE CLEANING ?

REALLY ?

salems lot much ? i need money for the cleaning so the wife can do her thing, and i dont even wanna marry, where the hell did you slip that one in ... ?

dude ... its 2018 ...

gah, sweetie ... i don't wanna be your teacher ...
i could be your cult leader maybe ? you could give me your wage and we can try to make many babies after i send you out to entrap my enemies ? how about it ?

no ?

pfff....

mmh ...
ofcourse, sirs and madams, i am not under the illusion you can't fuck this up for me AGAIN ... as i said to someone last night : "steemit woke me up a little" ... but even if it's beyond my control if you do that, i will go to great lengths to not let YOU have it either, maybe even at the risk of self-destruction

i simply can't do it anymore, and its not gonna happen, not everyone reacts like a trained labrat when you put them back against the wall, even cornered rats can be dangerous if you're not built to kill them

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my native language is fluent sarcasm, not english, dont let this be misunderstood : my message to the world

enough damage, you already wrecked 1/3d of my life and counting, pushing me deeper and further away, im NEVER coming back to your world, but you dont realize

i was never part of it in the first place

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(no, poincgames is clearly not microsoft free but i think thats the only thing windows is useful for : directx, otherwise its a total waste to install on a production-pc)
i had to remove all audio because youble claimed copyright crud b/c of some music playing in the background so my nice voice explaination is gone, i hope to get back to stuff like this, especially the rpg on maker after i get the rest here up and running, but first things first and then the rest

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me

discord i only log in once or twice a day in case there's a problem with the distros but i always reply to PM's just as i try to here to any reply thats more than "gg!"

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