The Safe Place Outside Of Judgement
EXYLE’s Happiness
I follow @exyle and he always exudes this positive vibe no matter what he posts. He is positive about being a steem witness, eating frozen veggies, or hanging out with his girlfriend.
This year, I have spent a lot of time being grateful for so many things in my life, but last year I struggled with being grateful for me.
There were so many things dragging me away from being grateful for myself. Past traumas and current troubles were part of the problem. The other part was that I had a few people in my life who would blow my mistakes out of proportion and forget my triumphs.
I internalized this, wrote a lot of poetry, and in the moments where I saw others post pictures of themselves, there was an invisible wall preventing me from sharing images of myself.
SELFIES AND STUFF
The truth is that sharing an image of myself does three important things.
It shows that I am at a place where, no matter what, I am OK with me. This acceptance means that I know I am human and despite my shortcomings, I can see that I am connected to my purpose and am joyful in that.
It provides me a space to be myself online. I will say more about this concept, but if I am comfortable with sharing my words, poetry, sketches, code art, music, random experiments, then why the hell would I hide? I have already shared myself in creative ways. Being comfortable with posting my own image allows me to share a snapshot of the human behind the works on steemit.
Sharing my image helps combat the negative forces that make me focus on my shortcomings. It is a way to say, “Yeah, I fuck up, but we all do. This is OK. We will get better and learn to build on the progress we make.”
PLACE OUTSIDE OF JUDGEMENT
I was talking with a friend and I told her that reading Rudolph Steiners literature has exposed me to many things I haven’t heard before. But being exposed to a new perspective has given me a place in my mind where I don’t outright reject or accept new information. I leave it on a theoretical mental shelf filed under the title new things to think about. This gaves me space to spend time expanding myself and being OK with who I am and who I am becoming.
Thanks for the mention.
For what it's worth, I have had a low self image of myself for a long long time. It sucks. When I look back at that time now I realise there was no need for it. So much time lost.
I decided to change it when I turned 27-28 after I spend a night in the hospital. Started to work out and focus more on my business and going out more. It helped. I changed. Got more confident too. I also started to share my feelings instead of internalising it all. That also helped a lot.
For example: I need a lot of time to be by myself. When I don't get this I don't feel ok. I used to wait until people gave me my time, now I just claim it when I really need it. It give a sense of control and peace.
I'm now at a point where I just want to be happy with a lot of things. Not everything goes the way I want all the time but there is always positivity somewhere and I like to focus on that and share it on my blog.
One thing I never used to do either was share pictures of myself...lol how that changed :)
Sorry for rambling on!
Good luck this year on focusing on the positive things! It's worth it 100%!
I can see how being proactive in those areas benefits you and others. I’m glad to hear of your approach!
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