Me and My MoM...
My mom is not my friend, we were never been very close.
I was always very close to my Dad. So when I lost him, my relationship with my mom become more awkward than before. I never used to share anything with her and now I'm struggling to make myself comfortable with her.
May be it sounds wired. Sometimes I also wonder, how come I'm her daughter? We are totally opposite. I got every single habit she hates and she also is the same on this. But that surely doesn't mean we don't love each other!
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Maybe my Mom is the one, with whom I had the most arguments in my life. She was never been my supporter and I have to explain to her, request her to accept me and so on. In my teens, you can guess how I see her as my enemy. But now we become close to each other in other ways. Like, she is in her 60's, she is becoming old. My father passed away ten years ago and she became very lonely from that. She needs someone to talk to, someone who can take care of her. But she never shows that...
She was always been a strong woman and always will be, I know. She is very emotional but tries to hide it. She never shares her feeling, loneliness, any difficulty, sorrows or anything; not even her joy! It sometimes feels like I'm not part of her life. But I understand she doesn't want to make me worry about anything. But it sometimes feels very wired seeing her. I have seen my friend's mom, how they share their life with them. I used to feel jealous. But now I understand after so many years she can't change herself. We have to accept what she is, how she is.
She retired from her Government service a few years ago. When I was a child I always missed her presence in my life. And as she is terrible at expressing her love and emotions, I brought up without the warm feeling of being loved. But now as I became a Mom also, I can understand her better. She is always there for me but she doesn't want to remind me that every time. But as I have said I'm totally opposite with her, I show my love very often to my son.
I don't know what makes her live a life without us. I mean she lives alone in her house- a different city from mine and always refused to come to us. Maybe she enjoys her personal space. It's a quite uncommon thing in our culture. But we three siblings are still trying to convince her to stay with us. It's actually a wired type of relationship with her. I never feel comfortable and I know she also feels uncomfortable with me.
So, that's us- me and my mom. I'm looking for the day when the barrier between us will break and we become more close to each other...
I don't usually share these things and never talk about it with anyone, but I feel like I should open up a little bit , at least in Blockchain where no one knows me personally!
THANKS FOR READING
Ooo wow. A very touching story about ur mom. What happen to your dad? I am back. Hahhaa long time din get to talk to you here. For me fortunately, I have a good relationship with both parents. Well, I guess that in life God arranges things the way God does to let us feel some experiences that make our life great.
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I'm really very happy to see you come back! :)
Yeah, our relation is awkward, like less known persons. My Dad had a brain stroke and he passed away ten years ago. I feel alone from then...
Thanks for asking. It's great that you are close to both and I'm also trying to raise up my son this way. So that he never feel lost if one of us could not be with him. :)
Wow. It's been a long time already but I am sure u still quite miss him. Dads are great. But how come u do not like your mom that much? Is it because she doesn't talk to you much and understand perhaps?
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Ha ha ha... There's no way I don't like her, she is my mom!
I just can't get close to her or show love towards her all because of the barrier we created over the years. And as now we have to befriend coz there's no one between us to support and love, so it's becoming awkward for me as I don't know how to be comfortable with her as I don't used to be.
I hope you understand. Thanks 😊
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Today I haded an argument with my mom, not everydays is the best but this read help me so much to meditate about my life, thank you.
Great to hear that you find it helpful.
Thanks 😊
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I have the same situations with my mom too. I became closed to her only the last few years before she passed away. Life is unpredictable, we will never know what will happen next, just follow the flow as it comes.
Thanks for sharing. It makes me feel a little less awkward.
I'm trying to be close with her but as she doesn't open up easily so it's hard. But I understand and I will try my best as well.
Thanks again 😊
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It is the greatest art on earth to create a few seconds of harmony with each other, I think. And so it is often really difficult to feel good from the ground up, especially when you have opposing opinions. But that doesn't mean that you always feel uncomfortable when you have opposing opinions. We are often behind a hard façade and it is not easy to break through. Basically, many people are lonely behind their thick walls. Walls, mortar from daily and professional experiences that make hard. And you must never forget what a mother accomplishes, you know it. Which are often smiled at. I fully respect that, your mother has worked and then mastered everything at home. Time for feelings is often too short, to the sorrow of many children and men, but also the mothers suffer from it. And you also often missed their presence.
I think it is good if your mother wants to live alone. I also think that she enjoys her personal space, who doesn't. And she would also have to be afraid that it would be restricted and who likes that? If a family grows together, then that is something different, as if your mother came to you now. And why should your mother come to you and then you would all not feel well. I am convinced that there will be many times when the barrier between you will be broken. But I think a person will never can open completely, because there is so much in the subconscious as well.
Thanks dear for sharing your thoughts.
Yeah, a two different person have their own barriers and its hard to cross that. Sometimes I feel that I couldn't do much for my mom because of that wall. Like she even refuses any luxurious gifts. I can understand her feelings and why she made this wall but try there is no way it's not gonna hurt.
I respect her personal space but I miss her in my life.
I hope you understand.
And thanks again to make me understand better. 😊🤗
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