Patience, Faith & Self-Love Were Worth It!

I feel so many people rush their love-life. It's not that some want a partner in their lives and some don't, it's just that we are all too secretive about our own greatness and would desperately want the other sex to notice how awesome we actually are, were tat awesomeness ever to present itself within the fleeting window of time reserved for introductions.

But somehow I always had the feeling that the ones I truly wanted to meet somehow did not get to see me the way I am before they quickly lost interest or barred their doors. And so the tendency was to evade completely, to not take risks and to eventually start questioning my own stance on sexuality: Maybe I really was setting the bar too high. Maybe human beings are not really meant to be in relationships that create breathtaking synergies and unimagined potential. Maybe it's just suppoed to be a drag with a few hilights along the way...

But then, having let go of it all completely I met her.

And I was ready to take her. To let her know: Hi. I am here, I see you. Let's take a risk?

She said to me later that she felt the same way, more ready than ever for someone like me and we're both immensely proud of ourselves for having taken the courageous action instead of faking non-interest against our inner calling.

And then the whole thing unraveled.

Ego was almost waiting for something huge to be totally unacceptable and out of place. Ego has since stopped waiting because it can trust more and more that she is real and this is happening. The few times she became vulnerable made me love her so much more. Maybe because the way she integrated her own behavior and the way she talked about it, a radiating level of self-reflection that made me speechless.

Now when I listen to her mind formulate impossible linguistic contraptions of sharp-witted wisdom, when I see her dance on a good floor and when I look at her eyes looking out - I feel unspeakably happy and wise for having "waited", for having focussed on myself to ever come to a powerful place in my life where I could build that bridge to her the moment she came onto my radar. And that's how it happened.

She is so much more than I had hoped for. So. Much. More.

Never thought I could reasonably hope for a woman like this to show up in my life and... wow am I glad I held onto the notion regardless. It IS possible. They do exist out there. And they ARE looking for... someone like you.

Now that I met her, we passed each other's quality tests and discovered more than we ever thought could reasonably be there everything's just getting better and better I can say that: It's not only possible. It's probably my default recommendation to anyone looking for a partner with quality (wether man or woman). Do take the luxury of being patient. Do work on yourself while still not having found her. She is out there. Looking for you.

When you two meet, everything will be simple. She will know it as much as you will, and all of the fears and hangups that want to show up will also have to surrender at the thing you two will have started building already: Someone to actually work with. To go far with. To go father and beyond what most deem a relationship to be, and then exiting the concepts and matrix outgrowths completely because you donot have to fight against her about the things most clear and basic to you. She will long be on the same page with you and from there the sprint can actually begin. Instead of wasting years fighting about what music to put on or how the milk carton is always in the wrong place in the fridge.

I explicitly want to say how essential it is to take the risk of being hurt when you feel she might be that match you were hoping for. You do have to try!

But more than that I want to say how clear and rewarding this has all turned out for me already. If you think you need a girl because society says so: FORGET IT. If you are confusing your libido with an actual decision to spend your life with someone you don't really dig: FORGET IT. If you really want to make a kid with someone you can't even share 10% of your actual views with: FORGET IT. It will be an endless drama with lots of noise and stories, but I think I am too greedy for it. Too greedy for a good life, for a life living into a resonant direction not towards more dissonance.

We get into all sorts of brawls with most people in our lives but why would we want a major opponent to our view right in the middle of our life, arguing about the most basic things when there are millions of other people on Earth we have yet to meet that pull in the same direction?

I always felt relationships were too important to be treated as disposable pastimes. Not out of morality but for the simple fact that such a relationship is a giant black hole of love and life, threatening to devour all in its way if this initial dissonance between aspiring partners isn't worked with properly.

Guess some people just WANT the drama in the morning arguing about trivialities to ill-communicate unuttered needs. I would much rather wake up next to a woman who sees the world close to how I see it, who shares the same values in her deeds I am aspiring to in my own and who is already bringing out the best in me now at the beginning of our shared time on Earth.

Sounds like the claims of a madman blinded by hormones in his first week of being with a new woman, I know ;)

But that's the thing, we hardly qualify for being "fresh" now and I feel every time we see each other and the big plan is coming together, we love each other more than we thought we could ever love any human being again after past experiences of being hurt and misunderstood.

We both agree all the pain in the past was essential to eventually arrive at the place and time where we recognized each other and dared to take a risk without all the seriousness we learned relationships have to be based upon.

If instead we based relationships on trust and self-love, resonance will move the pieces around and everything will fall into place.

And here's the kicker: that's no longer a theory.
I speak from EXPERIENCE now <3

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