QOTW by @ecotrain: MAKING A DIFFERENCE IN 2020

Hello everyone! Have the wonderful year 2020, @ecotrain and to all people onboarding with this community.

It's not because of the new year that we have to make something different but it showcases to look forward to doing something about it. Making something different is one way of improving and changing the pillar if we thought it was not good enough. We are the master of our own creativity and what expertise our ability in doing such thing.

My time for making a difference.

We all knew the story behind me and how my life was going through. And for short, I had been helping my entire family since then. There are no regrets since everything bears good fruit and the outcome exists positively. I don't wanna change it how the way it used to be? But lately, I realized that I am not getting younger. Day by day, I felt the difference between my life two decades ago compared to what I'm experiencing today. It's all about the capacity of doing my obligations, responsibilities, and commitment. It is already embarrassing that I renewed contract every two years for two decades but now my efforts in doing my work declined a lot. My mindset keep intact but my tendons, already sometimes refused.

What would I expect from hard-working being a household worker for more than two decades? I knew it could be happened and this is the reason why I should have to make something different starting this year.

For some reason, I never really thought about complaining and inform my family. They are the reason why I did it for a long, long time ago. Since 2014, I had a little pain on my knee but I used organic liniment curing it by natural medication. It perfectly absorbed into my pain and helped me a lot. This is something I will not changed. However, I feel like to inform my family that I am getting older and it's time for me to save for myself. This will be my priority for this year and save for my future homecoming. To be true, I didn't save any amount because my salary is not enough supporting my parents specifically to my blind dialysis patient mother. I am also helping my son raising his children.

Looking back, my earning before when I was new here, I spent all my income for the education of my three siblings, my son and supporting the three children of my brother who was separated from his wife. I kept their children living in my parent's house and I gave them all their needs and for their education too. These are the reason that I have no savings at all. As I said, there's no regret at all but this time I will force myself to be more focused on my own.

How to make a difference?

Starting this month, I will be cutting my remittances. My goal today is to retire and go home for good to give myself a break from working too much. I am started worrying about my health if I won't stop my work here. Being exposed to an air-conditioned room while sleeping has a different impact while sleeping in a normal room like where we live in the province. Living in a tropical country is different from living here who rely on air conditioning. It might be too much pain leaving my second home with the people who treat me like a family but I can't resist the reality that my family needs me and my presence is badly needed more than what money gives them. All of them wants me to spend my remaining life span with my family. My friends here in steemit advise me all the time to go home right now and not later and this made me decides and realized that they are all in the right track for me.

Why I must do a difference?

From now on, day by day, I am urging myself to hit this goal of coming home alive and it could happen if I have to act myself in a different way and change it deliberately.

I hope that these changes will not be too late for me. And I could be a master in my own way, that no one will be watching me on what I am doing freely.

I hope also that before my life ended, I could live a life for myself, for my own happiness. I already did it for them all and I hope I would accept the challenge to make my own happiness. I know this is not me, my real me is more thinking of my family than myself but I need it making a difference.

Thank you @ecotrain, once again you made my day with this good question of the week.

The picture above is my own photography. It has a very meaningful message in my life. It was an early morning, the clouds scattered like some hardship may come to my way but it has no power to stop the sun rays to shine. So, it means there is still sunshine that will give me hope for a better day in my life.

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