My Oldie Goldie Series

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I once had a bipolar girlfriend, she was lovely and loving, she was my first writer, and she was very good at it, at a very tender age that year, so I guess that was where the connection began. I fell in love with her quick, luckily for me she felt the same, but she's bipolar, she could be happy now and get a very ugly bad mood the next minute, I could not wrap my head around it, I tried so much to understand her, she got upset at me one day and broke up with me over the tiniest matter. Once again I was heart broken.

She played me this song a lot. Whenever I called her for a long time on phone, she will play this song in the background and make sure we both listened to it. The song meant a lot to me as it felt I was Micheal Bubble serenading her. Unfortunately, the last night I spoke to her, and knew I was almost never going to hear from her again, I cried, and listening to this song made me cry more, it was on repeat the whole night, I sure woke up with swollen eyes.

I'm well over her now as it has been a fairly long time, anyway, I'm glad I can listen to the music now and still twist my head and hum to the melody. I haven't had anyone to fill that space though, its like every time they break my heart, that part gets empty and then when I fall in love again its like a new plant has grown somewhere else within my heart but that former empty place is still there.

Have I given up on love? or loving? Hmmn, not really, its just that in all my experience, love seems to always carry a baggage with it called pain. Its almost as if once you feel love, you cant run from pain, if anyone has experienced something different, kindly lets discuss about it in the comment section. I've honestly loved in all my relationships, and I've intensely hurt too, I'm just not sure if I want to be hurt anymore. Why love always brings pain I don't know, from the inception of the world, love has always brought pain to those who bear it, Romeo and Juliet, Jack and Rose, Romeo must die, St. Valentine and quite more and more of them. It just makes me wonder, pain makes us treasure what love is and whom we love. Maybe till when I find that person that is worth all the pain, then I might love again.

Anyway, this music is by Michael Bubble, and the title of the song is Quando, Quando,Quando. You should give it a listen, it sure soothes the souls, especially if you have someone you're loving at the moment. Enjoy

P.S

Incase you were wondering, I cant find that my ex anymore, I dont even know where she is now, with the kind of person I am, if she had even tried to find me, she would have given up since. I was basically nowhere till I found steemit, like you already knew that.