Prison

I have a lot I want to say, many things waiting for a time to be unleashed. A lot of sensation bottled up inside, crying for a time where they can freely come out without shame, my emotions are trapped in a cell yelling for the tiniest bit of freedom. Oh God, can I ever be free of this guilt? When will all this anguish leave me? Sorrow is the only friend I have come to know; Bitterness and hatred are the only siblings I have. Guilt burns in my soul like a mountain set on fire. Can I truly come out from this cell? When will I be able to smile within my heart? Will I ever get to shout the shout of freedom? I have been trapped for way too long than I can remember; way too long that I have began to grow grey hair in my cell. Colors mean nothing to me because all my life I have known only darkness.
I yearn for a time when I can really be free, a time where the fire in my soul is quenched. At times I wonder, will that time ever come? Can the guilt which kills me also be killed? Fear has become my daily companion; dining with me always never leaving me. I have tried to end this captivity of mine but it seems like there is no ending to it, seems like I can never be set free. My emotions continue to yell for freedom which she might never get. She suffers every day, yearning and yearning for her independence.
In my days of anguish and captivity, I was visited of a little girl who told me of a person who I could give all the guilt, anguish and sorrow that dwelled inside of me; including all my fears. In whom I can finally have independence, which I so longed for. My emotions let out of the bottle, someone to give all my burdens and burning sensations.
A smile began to invade my soul, longing for that person. I asked where such person was so that I can finally be free. The little girl said, that person has always been with me. I looked right; I searched left finding only my caged self. She called the name, “JESUS”, as the words of that name filtered into my ears; the fire that desperately burned within my soul was gradually becoming cool. Air finally got to my soul. “What a sweet name” I thought to myself.
I wanted total freedom so I sought for JESUS. To my greatest surprise he was right there beside me in prison, waiting for a day when I would finally call out to him and give Him all my bottled up emotions along with all the guilt and aguish I have kept locked up within me. He took all not demanding a single thing from me. Oh what a great relief. I was released from prison and no longer wearing the prison uniform I was made to wear all my life; and guess what? He gave me a dress; the most colorful I have ever seen.
He finally told me, “Leave all your worries with me, because I care for you”.
“What a wonderful person”, I thought.