Hearing voices

No, I’m not going crazy (well, not more than I generally am) and it’s not about weird voices talking in my head. Although it’s equally annoying to hear people speak and having to follow both what they’re actually saying and what they're not. I’ve always had this capacity to decode the hidden meaning behind someone uttering a seemingly random thing to a very annoying degree. If you listen carefully, you can hear their inner voice, the rationing behind what they actually say and it’s even worse than having them say something unpleasant to your face. At least that would be out in the open.
Earlier today, my son asked me what were my plans for the afternoon. Obviously, I immediately knew he was thinking about my promise that I would play a certain game with him. That’s not a big deal, I know, what kind of parent cannot follow their own child’s train of thought?

Another example - last week I was on the phone with a friend and mentioned my daughter was in Poland, something to do with a blogging platform, I sort of mumbled. There was no direct answer at the other end. Just some ‘oh’, a short syllable which nevertheless carried this person’s complete distrust in whatever it is my crazy uneducated kids might be doing. Clearly, all that blogging thing is not something worthwhile so why even bother talking about it?
I don’t know if it’s just me, but what I hate it when people insult my intelligence like that. Of course I know what you mean by saying or, in this case, not saying something. I understand when somebody asks ‘have you heard from X?’ with no concern whatsoever for the actual X, but trying to dig for information on how I feel about X, are we still friends and why?
On the other hand, I suspect I sometimes do this myself. I am under no illusion, I know I’m a very judgy bitch myself, which leads me into even more unsettling territory. Are all our human interactions so fragile that we dare not speak what’s on our mind? How many friends do we have that we can actually talk to without cloaking our real thoughts in fake concern? As far as I’m concerned, I’ve met few people whom I could really have an honest conversation with. The kind of people you’re not afraid to call their bullshit and they in turn would give an equally honest answer.
Outside of Steemit, I’m a very private person and I guess this is one of the reasons why. I find it very taxing trying not to hear that other voice and the real meaning in what people say. I can if I have to, but most of the time I’d rather not bother.
I could go on ranting, but to be perfectly honest I’d be doing that just to put off the call I promised to make. Talking to a person I haven’t spoken in a while, arrange a meeting perhaps. We used to be quite close, but I’m afraid I’ll have to put up with hidden meanings and hearing unspoken words. Oh, well, I’ll give it a try…
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