Velvet

in #writing5 years ago





Have you ever heard the cool, calm voice of madness? Well, I have—it’s soft like velvet and scares the hell right out of you.

I’m an over-worked psychiatrist in a provincial hospital and deal mostly with the criminally insane. When the cops are stymied, they come to me—Doc Warner, they call me—and make me sound like a cheap patent medicine, as in Doc Warner’s Little Yellow Liver Pills, or something lame like that.



Anyway, if it’s true that you become what you do, then I am one helluva walking occupational hazard. Counselling depraved serial killers and rapists can ruin your whole day—that’s why I see Howard Stern. He’s not the real Howard Stern, but looks a lot like him. He’s a shrink like me—a kind of shrink’s shrink and keeps me sane, or at least tries to. His real name is Nate Granger.



“So, you’re handling the Tucker case?” Nate was leaning back with his feet up—I mean, he put his soft leather cowboy boots right up on his five thousand dollar oak desk. I cringed a bit, but tried to ignore it.

“Yeah. It’s a weird one all right. This little girl, no more than eighteen, butchered and dismembered her mother.”

Nate whistled softly. “O tempore, O mores.”



Nate could do stuff like that. Just when you figured you were dealing with some country hick, he’d surprise you with a little Cicero, right out of the Catiline Orations.

“It gets worse. She took eighteen months to get rid of the corpse. Cut her up into little pieces and flushed her down the toilet.”

Nate just shook his head. Like me, he heard it all before. The banality of evil.

“How are you doing?” he asked casually.

I knew it was coming—I just didn’t know what to say. So I decided to tell him the truth.

“The other day on the way home from work, I saw a raccoon lying dead on the side of the road. I cried about it for hours afterwards.”



He clunked his boots off the desk, got up, came over and put a fatherly hand on my shoulder. “Nobody understands what we go through.”

“Yeah, but we do it because we get paid the big bucks.”

It was sick—not even halfway funny, but we chuckled cynically and shared a brief moment of camaraderie—the loneliness of the long-term shrink, I reckon.

I didn’t want to ask the next question, but it just came out. My mouth kind of moved all on its own.



“Have you ever dealt with a case of suspected demonic possession?”

Nate took a deep breath. “Is that what you think is going on here?”

He went over to the liquor cabinet and took out two tumblers. It was going to be a long night.

“I don’t know—I’m asking you, godammit.”



I was over the top in my reaction—I admit it, I snapped. The case had gotten to me more than a little. Three or four hour-long sessions with that dark-eyed vixen wore down my nerves. My right eye was twitching slightly and I blinked, hoping it’d calm down.

Nate had poured about two fingers of Glen Fiddich—he now added two more and slid the glass across the desktop to me.

“I recall an instance a few years back when a colleague—who’ll remain nameless, for obvious reasons—suspected the same thing. Of course, in his case, he went looking for it.”



I knocked back half the scotch. “How do you mean?”

“You’ve got to understand this fellow, Tom.” He was calling me by my first name, so I knew he was in earnest. “This man hated religion—saw it as a source for all the world’s ills. He figured God was just a big father-figure in the sky—kinda like Santa for grown-ups.”

I nodded. I knew the type.



“Anyway this fellow puts out an ad in the psych journal looking for suspected cases of demonic possession. As you might expect, the first three or four were typical schizophrenics—but the fourth one—that was the real deal. Scared the hell right out of him. Left the profession—never been the same since.”

The room suddenly got darker. Nate noticed it too and turned on his desk lamp.

“What makes you think this one is real?” He asked the question nonchalantly, swirling the scotch in his tumbler, but I saw he was spooked.

“She talks backwards in Latin.”



He raised his eyebrows.

“She’s got a grade ten education, Nate, and tests out at a hundred I.Q.”

“Not exactly what you’d expect from a high school drop-out, eh?” He looked as if he’d throw up. He was sitting in the half-light of the lamp—his mouth and jaw were lit, but his eyes and the top of his head were in the shadow.



“It gets worse. I had this dream last night—never had one like it before. It was so real. The door opened and she walked into my room and started talking in this soft, velvet voice.”

“What did she say?”

“She told me she was going to kill me and how she was going to do it.”

“Jesus!”

“The worse part was she said it so matter of factly—as if reciting a laundry list or something.”



Nate got up and started pacing. He stopped in front of the window and stared out at the jumble of lights from the nearby office towers.

“She’ll never get out to hurt you,” he said. “You can count on that.”

I knew he was right…but there was another thing I knew. In the realm of the spirit there was no distance—walls were not a barrier. I was vulnerable and helpless. She had been in my room. I heard her voice.



“I want you to take a vacation—effective immediately. I’m not suggesting, Tom—I’m ordering you to get the hell out of town—leave the bloody country, if possible. Go away and don’t come back for a long time.”

He looked at me imploringly. “Will you do that?”

“Yeah, Sure. Maybe I’ll go to Mexico and check out those ruins—always wanted to, but never had the opportunity.”

“Well, now you do…and Tom, like I said, stay the hell away and don’t come back for a good long time.”



I shook his hand—even gave him a hug. He watched me all the way out to the elevator and stayed until the stainless steel door slid shut.

I like Nate and he means well—he just doesn’t understand.

All the time he was talking, she stood there in the corner—her dark lips moving and velvet voice talking.

I either go with her, or she takes him—a plain and simple transaction—kind of like reading a laundry list.

The banality of evil.



© 2019, John J Geddes. All rights reserved



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The obvious first thought was, she is the one possessed, but then I thought, John likes his little twists, so what if it is not her (at least, maybe not anymore), it is him.

I know that demonic possession is easily diffused or spread from one person to another. Each time evil is manifested in a way we can see or feel, don't we carry that dark pain inside us like a thorny seed, allowing it to sometimes influence how we think?

Very perceptive, Arthur. I believe in transference of spirit - I think psychotherapists are especially vulnerable to this

Thanks, Deb :)

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