We all make use of this expression in an incredibly flippant manner, but do any of us ever stop for a moment to contemplate what all “these moments” everyone is having are all about and why we have them?

For the most part, I consider myself a fairly positive individual. I have “worked” my way to this state and “stage” in my life through, well... let’s call it experience shall we…. I have - by my own comparison – leveled up if you will. But I too… still have my moments.

I had one yesterday.

Oddly enough they are often spurred by the smallest things, yet somehow end up being so VERY dramatic. I don’t cry often, but when I do… then I do it properly. Make a good job of it and all. lol

I went into the bathroom to blow my nose and ended up standing in front of the mirror looking at myself – make-up free and full of tears. I stared at myself and I suppose in some ridiculous desperation for an answer, demanded “WHY” to my reflection.

Needless to say, I got no answer – but I continued to stare at “this person” that is me.

I was frustrated with her. Annoyed, angered and VERY emotional...

Why?

I am not entirely sure… As I sit here now with my mind dominating my thought processes, I think she (I) has done pretty damn well, all challenges and circumstances overcome considered… but apparently there is a part of “me”… that disagrees with me.

And I suppose this I where many (if not most) of THOSE moments… stem from.

An internal disagreement…

Something you are doing, being, saying, experiencing or feeling – is not agreeing with you on some other level. Perhaps it hurts because it takes you back to a place and time which you would rather forget. Often it can trigger a “knee jerk” reaction.

Sometimes you will simply switch off.

All of these are indicators I suppose… of something or some part of yourself that needs healing.

I watched a movie last night which was juuuust possibly the start of this. Lol… I am a sucker for anything that is truly REAL and this movie, to me, was precisely that! It was such a raw depiction of human nature… throwing caution to the wind and being that “odd ball” without caring what other people thought of you… and even more severely, caring but simply not being able to STOP being TRUE! I love that!

It was such a beautiful story and I suppose it really just got me thinking…and feeling...

And then it got me a little emo… hehehe

But hey, we all have our moments right?! Hehehehe ;)

FYI, this was the movie...

Until next time...

Much love from Cape Town, South Africa xxx

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