Disclosing my dark side !

Many of us are not aware of their dark sides. Many don't even believe that they have one. It takes courage to disclose those things about you which others might find disgusting, but I am proud that I don't just know what these are, but also not ashamed to speak it out on such a platform where these can never be deleted.

I am selfish. Yes, and I don't want to change. I think about myself the most then about any other being and I believe 95% of humans are very much like me, only except the fact that they don't accept it. They have an image to maintain, a fake one. They tell others that they love them, more then they love themselves. I say, at least I don't lie. One cannot love someone else at all, till they realize that they love themselves the most. They instead love their own image in other's mind, and so they lie, to protect it.

"I am selfish, and I don't want to change, because I can't assist anybody else, until I assist myself."

I am not classy. Yes, I sometimes behave so awkward, and I don't mind it. I think being classy is stupidity these days. One should just behave with manners in a way that doesn't harm anybody. That is enough. Why do people want to show off? Why do people want to wear the latest fashion? The fashion industry changes itself every 6 months and we trust something which changes so rapidly? Seriously? Where is the logic? One should just wear whatever they want, not what the trend is about. I eat pizza with bare hands, I don't want to handle those knives and forks, because I am not harming anyone if I do so, so I will do it my way. I don't want to behave rich, because nobody will start caring for me if I do. It doesn't matter. What matters is, being who you are.

"I am not classy, I don't show off, and I don't mind it."

I don't have too many friends. I will keep it short. I am not surrounded with as***les and I am glad about it. Yes I spend most of the time alone, I like it.

"I don't have many friends and I am glad about it."

I am spiritual, always talking about deep, serious, spiritual stuff. I lack humor, and so people stay away from me because I am always lost in my world of reality, which is claimed as fantasy by others. I don't mind what other's say but I love this world that I have found.

"I am spiritual, deep, serious, and weird !!"

I am lazy and untidy. I don't like picking up my things. My room is always messy. My mom is always scolding me for it but I don't change. I know this one needs to be changed but I just can't change it. Let's see if someday I feel quite motivated to change it. Not yet though.

"I am lazy"

Some people might be wondering why I am listing out all my imperfections on such a permanent platform where it can't be deleted. Well because I stopped caring what others think about me. For my parents, it's a bad quality. But I think people consider it a good one.

"I don't care what other's think about me."

I am a failure. I have done just too many things and I have failed in all miserably. I was not good enough to be successful but I am good enough to write. If I didn't fail then, I could never stick to writing now. As I say, failure is a blessing and I am blessed to taste it too many times. People make fun of me, but I pity them that they never tried anything else. They might be doing well, but today, I adoing brilliant, because I found what I am capable of, I learned what they will never get a chance to learn and I am happy.

"I am a failure but I am happy."

I don't behave like girls do. I don't walk by rules which are not logical. Rules which are not written anywhere, and even if they are, they need to be amended. Because I will behave like boys sometimes, because there is no set of rules or social norms which have the power to change my gender, no matter how I behave. I will behave like myself, like whatever I want to, a boy, a girl, a child or a mature. I want to be free and so I don't let the society decide what is too boyish or girlish for me.!

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What are YOUR darkest deepest secret sides? Do you have the guts to speak them out? Or would you keep yourself hidden from this world which is already afraid of it's own secrets being exposed? Come on, kill that hesitation and open yourself up !! Mention below your dark sides !! Waiting for 'em.

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