Been Long Haul, Long Life, Through Another Bend

Gotta stay up, be focused, stay busy, try to be somewhat social. Make sure I don't get too restless. Times are kinda slim with money right now so makes mobility more difficult. The family was supposed to get a cheque and we probably will but this builder is always slow on paying. Makes it tight and uncomfortable. Had a weird experience the other day too. Was walking through the wooded area in the other town and I said to my friend "is it okay I don't go on vacations like other people?" We walked through a path that goes through the middle of the trees instead of the path by the bench. I wanted to go by the bench anyway so we walked towards it. On the ground was crumpled pieces of paper with blood on it. Looked weird so decided to check it out. It was a cheque stub made out by the same guy who owes us to another person. Seemed like a strange omen. I hope everything works out okay. Such a strange coincidence.

To not get too lonely and to try to get out I like to go to the diner in town. Now we don't have as much money so I can't go there as much. Kinda sucks. I gotta make sure I go there sometimes. I need to see people. There is a waitress I like there so very much!! I love seeing her, always feel my spirit uplifted. She will be gone by the end of summer. I want to the keep the connection, know I can let her know. Whew it's gonna be alright. I need uplifting people in my life!! I have to be a lovely friend to myself. Love makes me want to be better to myself and reminds me to be right to others.

I'm going to try to keep creative, stay busy, stay loving!! I did make a nice big soup today! That helps to eat right. Keeps me more stabilized. I have been more relaxed lately. I feel myself healing up. Just gotta keep going with it!! Stay encouraged. Gotta deal with more paper work dealing with the gov't debt. I'll get it out of the way. Get my mind off it after that. Will keep up that creativity and practice. Ok good I'm glad I wrote some thought out. Feel ready for tomorrow. Get the energy going!!