My Husband My Child
The letter kept me staring on my desk, I sat on the edge of the bed and beside me Adim my little baby is still flushed and stepping on this year. Straight hair and white skin, in my mind
“Poor you son, do not know your father” I whispered. His father disappeared overnight during the first night and left only a sealed letter of red wax adhesive with the words open when the time was right ". Actually I do not care about the letter but the curiosity is churning out to know its contents
I do not understand why he left me after crushing me and put his seed into my womb that night after officially becoming my husband. I knew Penta with a short time no more than a month, and even then it was not accidental. He came on my doorstep suddenly 1 year ago, introducing himself as an old friend but i do not remember having a friend like him.
His face is white with straight hair, high proportion and has an attractive aura. But I am not interested in a man, even though it is handsome and has an athletic body though. But the presence of Penta at that time, only I use to legalize my relationship with Dini. Yes I'm a lesbian, female lover or you say LGBT out there.
A few years before, I came from a happy and sufficient family. I got a college education up to college, comfort and tranquility in this family. But what I feel is empty of all this, there is another soul in this self rebellion and want exit.
As a woman physically I pulled, fantastic body, violinable hip, thin lips, white skin and long hair would tempt every man when looking at me. So many men approached me but this soul refused without chesmistry at all, even the men who approached me just exploit them.
Different when I see women, the heart is pounding and blood up down want to touch her. There is a male soul in my body, it comes from childhood to adulthood. My eyes can not escape when looking at women. But in the environment and society are all taboo, the disease has long existed since the ancient city of Sodom and Gomorrah was destroyed in the time of the prophet. I can only keep quiet that, until finally I find Lastri in my chatting in cyberspace.
This heart seemed to find soul mate, Lastri as it cooled the arid souls of me. Her seduction shed my heart, we finally met . Lastri is a tomboy girl with her short hair, tight pants, tight T-shirts and converse canvas shoe so her trademark.
Lastri introduced himself to work programer a famous online motorcycle ojek in Jakarta, even he willing to come to my village in Kepanjen. Our relationship is intense, Lastri visited me in my hometown or occasionally I went to Jakarta to stay at her boarding house.
My parents would not be suspicious when I told them that to Jakarta stay at Lastri's place by reason of office training for 3 days. There we are like a couple who fall in love, no matter the confidence surrounding.
My relationship is getting farther away with Lastri, as it does not want to be separated by it. Desire to die if not with her, then with the courage to take Lastri to my parents' house to ask for blessing legalize us.
“What ??!! Your crazy Nay !!” my father shouted with a flushed face and furiously listening to my words while looking at Lastri.
“But I really love him, can not live without her
“Keblinger, do i am not give good religious lesson for you. Since your childhood we have you become a righteous person, why now want to be crazy "My father feels disbelief as he hit his head and his forehead many times.
“Mbokne, what are you doing this your child? Now wants to be a crazy person. Women really want to marry the same woman” shouted my father while looking at my mother who had been crying as much as before.
“Nduk, what is wrong with you? Influenced by demons?” my mother kept tears in her eyes.
Mom, This is your child-Nayala. Not crazy but aware.I want to marry Lastri is not the other. If not, I killed myself”.
“Oh nduk, you're crazy. Where there is same-sex marriage here, you cursed.
Stop it .. stop it mbokne, if you continue your crazy plan to marry this demon. Go from this house !! growled my father, glaring at Lastri who calmly while smiling her victory sign.
“Got you out of this house !!, I'm not willing to have a child like you. We educated you with the right teachings but you like this. Oh Gusti, what's wrong with our family? Until this child has a crazy mind” as he looks up to ask for forgiveness.
“Well, if the father and mother do not approve of our relationship. I ran away from this house. If that's the decision” as I pulled left-hand Lastri out. I heard only my mother's voice calls me and tries to keep me from going but her body is held by Dad.
Since that last I saw my family, I decided to move to Jakarta following Lastri. There we can be accepted.
In Jakarta, we are freer from a world that adheres to religious norms. Lastri and I make love without interruption. We live together, rent a house and find work. It's not hard for me to get a job in the sparkling city of Jakarta, my application in telecommunication provider is accepted.
But my relationship with Lastri was not smooth because he was having an affair with the others. It hurts me again it turns out he was bisex, caught by me when her vagina was beaten by a man in the house we shared together. I kicked him out of the house. I'm sadly endless, Lastri I believe has been traitorous.
But soon my sadness was healed by finding other hearts, but my relationship always ran aground. There is a fitness trainer Rory, Sheila an extrasary actress, Ratih a private college lecturer and more. But all the aggregates and the last Dini of a kindergarten educator became my partner.
It seems like the old problem, our status can not be legalized. Because the law of this country does not accept similar marriages or should we go to Europe or America to formalize our status and change citizenship. Ah it is impossible, our life and work here in this equatorial country.
That's when we have a crazy idea that we designed together.
Nay-honey, this will work if we do together” whispered in the afternoon after work while stroked my hair.
“What do you mean, princess?” I asked, spoiled and surprised.
“Looking for the man who wants to marry you, so you have a clear status and we can stay together clearly”.
“What's your crazy Din, I'm not turned on by men at all. This is want to get married. No Way!!
"What else Nay, you know the law in this country does not accept our kind" shouted Dini “Do you want to get old not married, so the old spinster continues to be suspected neighbors and the community around us .. huh?” she explained.
Actually, she said makes sense, if we live at home even if fellow women with a long time. Confessed to brother but did not have a family card, could be raided satpol pp. And finally the rotten plan I run trap men, then there comes the Penta.
My curiosity is not this big since I've seen the letter again, what's in it until Penta leaves it for me. The letter is not special, just the glue from the red candle as the seal.
I grabbed the letter, the red seal was torn and I took out a piece of paper in it and read it.
"Dear Nayala, I left this letter for you to read the right moment. Why I came to you why I left you. Look at your baby's face, watch his eyes, lips, hair and skin. You know, he is me who became your husband overnight. My place is 20 years from now, pass the time travel to meet you. Yes, you are my mother in the future, why I come to you because in the future you are suffering with other soul from your body. Body and mind do not unite, the desire to vent the endless lust. Constantly and continuously to satisfy your lost soul. I leave myself for you to care for, so you feel the touch of the man actually. And the man is me”