Wow hello Steemit.

I messed up big time.

So today I made my big debut.

I actually joined Steemit in 2017 but only decided to post today because, well as stupid as it sounds, I wasn't confident enough to put myself out there like that online even in writing. Plus I kinda wanted to change my username but today I decided this is something I've been thinking about for a long time, I'm just gonna do it.
I wrote my welcome post spelled checked it and spell checked it again then hit publish. I closed my laptop and walked off with a smile, glad I had done something I had been meaning to do for months. So here I am 8 hours later I came back and saw I've gained followers. Joy! I tried not to get too excited as it was just my first day and I knew I had a long way to go.
So I go to my post and find its hidden. Huh? I look for it, find it and it says:

"Your post has been hidden due to low ratings"

Let me tell you guys my heart nearly dropped out of my arsehole when I read that.
I though God what could I have done wrong? Was it my post? Did I not publish correctly? What could it be?
Then I read my comments. The first one simply said "Hmmm..." and then pulled up a google search result showing my (hopefully previous profile pic, I'm not sure I tried to change it but I'm not sure it's changed) to be someone else's picture. God. My heart started beating. As dumb as it sounds this was my logical reasoning:

1. OK I'm new to posting on Steemit, I'm not sure about this new thing.
2. Alright I know what, I'll find a picture that's free to use online that looks similar to me then as time goes on I can decide when and if to put my actual face online
3. I'm sure it will be alright its a public domain picture from Unsplash anyway.

Oh Boy was I wrong. 3 out of 3 wrong. Someone rightfully called me out on it and I can understand why. Using an attractive young girl as your profile picture which then turns out not to be you looks a little scammy. I understand. I just genuinely thought it was the best course of action at the time. And I would like to take this chance in the post to publicly apologise. Under no circumstances do I "blame" the Steemians who called me out. They were right to. It was a bit of a shock but they were right.

Now how does this relate to perfectionism? Well for near about 9 months I delayed posting on Steemit because the circumstances "weren't right". Wrong time, wrong username, wrong everything. And when I finally do it was on what I least expected that I messed up. So yeah I wasted all that time only to fall on a hurdle I couldn't even imagine.

Moral of the story: Just do what it is you want to do because no time is perfect and even when you try your hardest to do things right you can still fail. Or succeed. But you'll definitely never know unless you just go for it.

So Steemit this is eveangel signing off. See ya around;)

P.s I did mention in my first post that I would be doing an on going book review of "The Road Less Traveled" by Dr M.Scott Peck. This book is amazing and is actually one of the reasons I was able to deal with this situation and understand it from others perspectives' instead of just blaming other people or freaking the hell out. So I will 100% be doing that.

p.p.s The pictures in this post are most definitely not me I 'm just using them to make point. Let me not make that mistake again.

Bye Steemit ;)