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Sometimes when you’re strong, you still end up on the floor.
Then you think that whole strong thing was just a big fakeout. You cry. You say weird things to your friends. You stuff your face with popcorn. Then you’re like, “okay. I am actually a mess. I am actually a really big mess and I have a whole lot of work to do if I am ever going to be strong.” Or at least that’s what happens to me. And then I realize: Being strong isn’t about being invincible.
To elaborate, I’ve gotta use some double negatives here, just bear with me: It’s not about never being knocked down, never crying, never looking in the mirror and seeing your frizzy, mascara stained head moping back at you. Being strong isn’t a big loving smile plastered to your face after 19 crappy things just happened to you in a row. Being strong isn’t the end of all your problems.
Being strong is crying in your car in a parking lot for a half hour, and then turning on the ignition and driving to the next place.
Being strong is knowing your limits. Stating your boundaries. Admitting when you feel weak. Asking for help. Accepting help. But also going at it alone.
Being strong is doing the whole trapeze act, falling sometimes and everything, without a net, with a net, or trying it out on the ground first, before you go into the air.
I've been meditating on my strength for a couple of days because of this big change I am going through between jobs and launching my own business. I have been pretty anxious, and doubtful. And its making me realize that change always feels like this. Not knowing the future always feels like this. And I know from past experience of such moments that all it takes is an idea of where you want to go, and being strong enough to take the next step.
(photo is of one of my favorite spots near my house)
such a beautiful spot. @dflo
yes its really nice.
That spot looks really beatiful. It reminds me of a spot we have in my fathers childhood home, where i used to fish when i visited :) I hope you're doing okay?
Also, i included you in my latest post about giving thanks to the wonderful users of steemit. You gave me a ton of great feedback, which meant a lot, so i just wanted to say thank you :)
I am doing okay it was supposed to be about being strong even when we feel weak, lol. I have been contemplating what strength is made of. I am at a point in my life where i just gave notice at a very hard job and am going to try to start my own business so I am really freaked out and thinking all the time about how to stay positive! I have a very depressing job with children in crisis all the time, so I do have upsetting days, but it is because I am caring for a lot of people with very hard stories that make me sad. Sometimes I equate those sad emotions with weakness/ fragility, but I have lately come to understand that it is healthy and strong to let them out and keep taking one step after another. And hey, thanks! I will check out your post!