King of The Hill, Though I Would Rather Not Be - My Actifit Report Card: July 7 2020

Pardon my absence... a personal conversation I had think states it best. I appreciate those who take the time to reach out to me personally 😘

So few these days take the time to connect and I myself am guilty ... I truck along and don’t chat with people ... I am non talkative IRL in general with moments of being vocal so capturing those moments is kind of key to my creative process, make sense?
I have been low lately, for reasons that extend back to why I started creating in the first place. While being defeating once I work through the emotions the same conclusion arises each time. I am holding the torch of my late buddy who never felt comfortable expressing himself which I now believe to have been the real reasons behind his torment. He took his life, accident or not we do not know. What I know is that what he confided in me is now leading me on my journey, how to turn this torment into an creative inspiration.
We share this torment, I now live a promise to a dead man that broke his ... the name “King of Gonzales Hill” is in reference to the spot where we promised each other to never kill ourselves ... I am the last man standing IRL not just after sunset
But you know the sun will rise again and with it I must choose to either break my promise or carry his torch
In that respect I have no choice for I cannot and will not burden anyone with what I now must carry for so few can see a path to salvation using what burdens us as motivation

I stated that after linking the below video.

As stated in video work was most of my steps ... decided to record my “nuthin burger” LOL see the video to know... just trying to break the cycle while having a vocal moment 😉

So the title of this post is in reference to being king of the hill, the place where we made our promise. I still stand though I wish it not to be alone I cannot change what happened. I cannot break my promise. I may however make new promises and thus my journey.

Where I end up I do not know and that in itself is the beauty. As if a dog on the trail, blindly I follow where my nose leads me 🙏
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Daily Activity,Moving Around Office,Walking