Total Self Control Is What I Am Doing But It IS Not Easy
I've been controlling my fluid intake so much because if I don't I will really be in trouble as I would drown in my own body fluids particularly in my lungs.
It has been too long and I am glad that my lungs are holding-up and still not giving way considering that they have fluid all the time.
My nurses are not helping me with the situation because they are already callous with the condition of their patients and it is now "okay" for them that the blood pressure of the patients are high and that they are bloated with water just make sure that the blood pressure would not plummet.
It is bad because most of the mortality is fluid overload related, meaning that the patients die because of a fluid overload and I am seeing it develop in me and I am both getting worried, scared, and angry because it feels like my nurses are killing me softly and it is not funny nor a joke.
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So I am in a total self control about my fluid intake and it is not so easy, in fact it is really so hard to do since I have to consider nourishing my body while restricting my fluid intake.
If I would restrict my fluid intake then it feels like a misery obviously because it really is depriving myself of a need. It is not living anymore but a survive mode.
Sometimes I am just thinking to sleep the whole day so I can skip anything like of course eating and drinking because it feels like a day for me is also a day that punishes me. Eating and drinking had a lot of repercussions because it also adds toxins and extra fluids in my body.
It is just stupid to think about skipping a day and just sleep it off but it is just practical in a sense that it would really help me out with some of my issues but of course wasting my a day in my life being productive as well.
Maybe I can do that but again my health will get affected so I will have to just control my fluid intake and continue with my boring and pitiful life. I do not know what to do anymore but to stay focused and pray to God not to make my life more miserable than it is now.
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