Dear Diary: I Wish An Hope That My Mouth Won't Disfigure More

Last year my appearance changed exponentially because the lower half of my face just went bigger and bigger. At first I was taping shut my mouth because it is gaping wide open little by little until I could not speak intelligibly and people could not understand what i am trying to say because I could not press my lips together anymore.

Then after I took some medicine within the course of months I could press my lips again only when I was aware of it but it is still wide open when I sleep. But it is the least of my worries because I am worried about my face disfigurement to creep up slowly until my whole head is as big as it can get.

Eating is bothersome affair to do because of my swollen gums, it is not really the gums but the bones beneath my gums and it is just a typical symptoms of my Leontiasis Ossea condition. So I would just prefer to eat while lying down so that I would not struggle in eating my food to prevent it from being spitted out while I chew my food.

My speech disability and my trouble eating my food are just too hard for me to accept but it seems that this kind of storm is not over yet because it would be more possibly to go worse than I expect it to be and i do not know how in the future I can cope with that kind of scenario.