My Mother Is Just Tired Of Preparing For Her Birthday

I Regret In Not Helping My Mother

It will be less than 12 hours to go for my mother's birthday celebration but it will be held at around late noon time because one of my brothers will be coming from another birthday party with his brother-in-law and I do not know if they can still eat here after that. I just hope that the dishes that she prepared won't get spoiled but maybe it will not.

My my mother's birthday party is just a simple gathering of mainly family members and I am still not sure if my Uncle and Aunt from my father's side of the family would drop by tomorrow or in the 25th so I am quite not comfortable with that either way. I just don't like people now visiting me and seeing me in this pitiful condition that not even in my worst dreams didn't came.

Anyway my mother is just dead tired of what she was doing lately because of her cooking and going places buying things that she needed and baby-sitting with my nephews and nieces.
She does not have the best body now that she is already old and getting aches and pains and gets tired easily although she is relatively strong compared to other old people.

But many years ago if there are things that needed to be done in cooking for example I was just helping around. I would sometimes make the knives as sharp as possible before the meat and vegetables begins to be prepared for cutting and cooking.

I would also volunteer to pre-cook things and has the say on how much vinegar or tomato sauce is needed in the dish. So now I cannot do any of those anymore, I cannot even work on the sharpness of the knives now in its pristine condition. Now they have to contend with dull knives which obviously makes things harder to prepare foods. But they can sharpen those right? No they really cannot considering that I already bought sharpening stone for that purpose.

I could not do anything anymore, I actually can if not for this back and joints pains in my body and it is the big factor about my limitations and the bad thing is that I could not do anything about it and still getting dried-up with funds because of the expensive medicines that I have to buy in order for me to at least slow down the progression of my bone degeneration.

Now I cannot help my mother with her cooking and that just crushes my heart because I do love cooking but that too was taken away from me by my disabilities. I still hope that someday I will be able to pass through all these hardships and do the former things that I am able to do and that only will happen if a miracle form God would be bestowed upon me once again.