If Only I Could Go To College Again

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The College Days Was The Instance That I Felt Much Respected

I remember that instance that my parents asked me what school I would want to study for my College degree. They want me to chose between two different exclusive schools and I didn't hesitate to chose the best in our province because it is one of the best with its reputation and name.

I did tried my best to study but I have a Kidney condition already and in-fact a few months before I was admitted to the capital city hospital because of my orange-sized lymph gland in my neck. It is because of the infection in my Kidney and my system is kept on fighting it leading to a swollen lymph gland.

I was treated with antibiotics and that medicine that doctors give to make you to urinate more because I was having an edema with my face and leading to the chest. It was quickly abated and after three days we got back home. But the treatment of course didn't cure me because my case really needed a specialty doctor like a Nephrologist which at that time I have no clue on what to do.

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We Meet Most Friends In School

Thank goodness my father was working abroad so we had afforded my hospital stay at that time. And so after that happened I went to College until after one year I decided to quit abruptly because I couldn't cope anymore, I couldn't concentrate in studying and there are wee hours in the morning that I read just to put information in my head.

Those were the times that my mother also forces me to drink loads of water and herbal preparations thinking that it would be good for me if not cure me and also scolding me if I did not. Scolding me too if I get fevers due to infections because I ate this or that or didn't drink enough.

At that point as well that they would take some roots, weeds, and even corn hair to boil for me to drink at which I would blindly abide to drink because it might be good for me even though it tastes bitter and such not to mention having them in large amounts plus with water plus the factor that my diet is almost salt-free for that matter.

That really wore me down and you really could not be of sound study work if you have an unusual diet of literally no salt plus large fluid intake.

Then of course it affected my grades and the fact that we have also a physical education (PE) too scared me because I really could not do sports because of my weaker body than usual. And so I abruptly stopped going to school, I didn't even bid my school mates good bye.

I waited until I could see some improvements in my health but my waiting went fruitless because I was waiting for a bus that will never arrive because due to my system attacking its own cells, my kidneys in particular it was never resolved until ultimately I just sunk my head into the sand and deny the fact that something bad will happen to me in the future which also happened and the rest is history in the making.

So going to College and finishing it too is one of my frustrations, if only I had finished then I would be in a much different situation that I am now. Maybe I would not have discovered steem too or not being spiritual than I am now. Maybe this is just my fate in life and what I just need now is love because in this kind of life that I had I need all the comfort that I can get.