I'm Half-Naked And Afraid Of My Hyperparathyroidism

I am so terrified of my Hyperparathyroid that I am just sinking my head in the sand. I do not even google the terms "the signs of hyperparathyroidism" because if I would read the results it is just like telling me that I will or be getting the special treatment out of my own body's reckless behavior.

That is why even though the medicine for it is very expensive and very hard to stomach and endure I am still taking it no matter what and what will stop me is that when my saved funds are withered away and then at that point I will just have to focus on my hospital bills and phosphate binder which is also very expensive, I might go into a revolutionary way of dieting which might hurt myself in the process.

But I think it will not come to that I hope and God forbid that from happening because of course it is too much for me to bear and it definitely will mean my life which I am dearly trying to save all this while along with the kind friends that I have here which some whom I do not know even the image of their faces.

So the order of the day is to hold myself steadfast into managing my situation in any way that I can and I am thankful that I am not bothering anyone in my family with my medical burdens. I am just happy that my parents are not worrying anymore about where we can get funds to help me with my Parathyroid and dialysis-related needs and I am still thankful that I can at least shuffle my way inside the bathroom to relieve and clean myself up with my remaining strength.

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This is just an interesting life that I had, one in a few billion in a constant misery and is still also blogging about it. Well blogging is just my way to distract myself from thinking about my condition and it helps a lot although even my nurses are not liking that I am surviving, it is just hard to know that other people gave up on you before you yourself had given up.

I hate my body for going on and on and it is like an immortal soul that is refusing to die. I did had a life and death situation before but I survived it, and many years after I am still here but getting the big chance of not having to see and achieve my goals too because of the factors behind regarding the crypto prices and I feel that I can never make it and achieve my crazy dreams.

Well I am just crazy because my life is crazy and is punishing me day and night, is a crazy long fight and what is crazy about is is in the end I know who will win. I am just enjoying the things that I can in this lifetime as things are taken away from me one by one. May God have mercy.

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