I Just Wish To Die Before Any Of My Loved Ones Does

It is awfully hard to know that I only have a few family members that really cares for me. I do not think that they would spend just to see to it that I can bridge my days unto the next considering that I do have a very expensive maintenance cost about my health condition. So I am afraid that in a real times of need where I could no longer support myself I will be in trouble.

I am just proud of myself that I was able to sustain my medical needs up to now. But my expenses are drying-up my funds fast and the only way that I can avoid that is for my money to inflate and that could only happen if Bitcoin would go into greater heights because at that point maybe steem's price would also get bigger.

But if I were to spend my steem and cash it out at these relatively low levels then it would definitely drain away like the water in a kitchen sink. I am just caught off guard about the crypto prices which we all thought that "will go to the moon" not knowing that it has crycles or bear and bull which often has a time factor from short to a long process that might even take two or maybe even four years.

So it is my concern when my money runs out then it will be a very ugly situation indeed. I would not be able to prepare myself in having pains all over my body much less not being able to afford dialysis bills which even though I have a government health insurance I still have to pay extra so I cannot just deduct that to my worries, it is a real concern for me and I wish to not see that and hope to die before that time comes.

I really do not want to bother anyone in my family because of those issues because none of them really are obligated to help me out, and could only do as much but they have a more important priority and unfortunately it is not me.

What I would like really is to get my Parathyroid fixed so in that way my expenses could get curved unlike currently where I have to take my Cinacalcet and Phosphate binder which makes things expensive plus it makes my life hard because of appetite problems and feeling ill because of side-effects from the said drugs. I just wanted to graduate from it either with death or successful surgery, may God wills any of that and I will be thankful.