I Have Nothing To Do Much Today But Enjoy A Lesser Body Pain

I am much feeling well today, I had some sleep although a bit intermittent but it is better than not being able to sleep at all. I had maybe a dream but I already had forgotten about it. What I like currently is my strength as it just got some improvement, maybe because of the alleviated pain issues after I got discharged from the hospital because of an appendectomy where I took double the dose of Cinacalcet that I was taking before.

But only for a few days I had some improvement on my body. I no longer needed the nurses to pick me up before and after my dialysis which surprises my Mother. So I ought to get up from my bed and exercise my legs for that matter but I will just have to wait until I am in a much better condition I hope and from then on I will try God-willing if I can walk better again.

I have so many plans in my life that I wanted to do but all I want to do really much is to cook again some meals that I can eat. My mother would cook and will say to me that it tastes very nice only to struggle in eating it later. SO I am eager to make my own dishes so that I can at least have some degree of enjoyment when I eat and not like for many years already that I am stuck with also enduring the cooking of my parent's prepared meals.

I am still amazed on how Cinacalcet had worked in alleviating my body pain because it improved my well-being but it has a cost, that nasty dreadful drug really cost an arm and a leg. It is a wealthy person's medicine, only a few people can afford it considering that I have to take it twice a day now.

But I needed it and it is the drug alternative for getting the Parathyroidectomy that I wanted to happen so that I could free myself from its appetiteloss side-effect which is really causing me in the other hand some degree of misery regarding with my struggle to eat food.

Now I am like a cliff hanger, if I would let go with my grip with what is keeping me to survive I would surely fall to my demise but if I would keep on holding it would cost me some degree of misery and hardship. I had chosen to just hold on and be patient about it, maybe with a bit of more time and blessings from God I will soon see a much better condition that I am stuck into and that is what I am trying to do.

Thankfully I am fortunate that I have a community that is selflessly helping me out, they are the friends that I do not even know and yet they are in at my back and I regard them as my heroes, a tool of God for my own struggle in what ails me for so many years now. At least I have some hope still in my heart that I can get out from this and only time can tell. God bless steem community.