I Felt Upset Today

Dialysis time is the only opportunity for me to be able to enjoy food but sometimes like today things didn't go as expected. Apparently the convenience store that I was buying my food from just had a delivery of their supplies at the moment my mother had steeped inside the store to order my food. It just meant that they will not be able to prepare the food right away because I think it was frozen and such.

Now my mother just is forced to order another rice meal for me which as you would expect didn't really liked it because my palate is just longing for that breaded pork chop with gravy, I really liked it but what I had was a fake recipe of a dish called a "Pochero."

Pochero is a dish of a Spanish origin. It is like a stewed pork or beef with some carrots, potatoes, tomato sauce and fried bananas. But what I had was just like a boiled pork. It would have been better if it was a beef but it is Pork.

Normally I would get upset about it an I did. My mother supposed to come back to the convenience store to order my food I could eat here at home but even though I like it I said no. My plan was not to eat for as long as I can because I was upset but my hunger had kicked in since I had not much to eat this morning except for that bland and boiled little bits of pork and some bits of vegetables which I didn't finished eating and I just asked mother to just fry me some salted fish and an egg that I would eat with some rice.

It is okay to eat some salted fish now because my muscles are like twitching like mad already because of the good clean quality from the dialysis treatment. That is the only thing that cheered me up today plus the fact that I was drawn with extra water than before and also I didn't suffer a blood pressure-related discomfort.

Well you can just forgive me from being upset because my happiness is just shallow and if that would get taken away from me then it is already a big deal. I know that in the future much more that I have now would get taken away so I am just enjoying what little was left for me to enjoy in this lifetime, a peculiar life that no one deserves.

Anyway that is the disadvantage of being so early with my dialysis schedule because we do not have much options to buy my dialysis meal except for that particular convenience store that my mother must beg to cook my meal order because their normal cooking time was at around 6:30 Am while I just needed to eat an hour before that. Well this incident doesn't happen always and it is just I am unlucky today for not getting my favorite meal which I am always anticipating at my dialysis session. So better luck next time for me God-willing.