I Am A Lazy Person Because That Is What My Body Had Made Me

It is hard to be in my position where I am pinned here in my bed not even able to walk around and out to receive the rays of the morning sun. I could not grow plants and vegetables anymore like when I was younger where I had even grown a passion fruit which my father eventually had destroyed.

Maybe there had been many things that I had accomplished which my health condition had prevented me from doing. I even attempted to look for work as a fast food worker but for the said reason I wasn't able to.

So my life and time are just wasted in waiting and waiting for the right moment that never came. My health had deteriorated over time so now I am just having pain issues that had limited already my mobility to an extent that trying to walk around is impossible.

It is just only in my mind that I could do it but whenever I would get up and feel the effort of doing so just by getting myself to sit upright proves that I am no longer the same. So I couldn't do anymore exertion lest I would injure my already brittle bones.

No wall I can do in to journal my uninteresting life and thoughts and use the steem blockchain to at least earn some for my medical needs. I am just glad that I could earn some money because if I don't I do not know where I will be picked up in the streets.

So my frustration is that high with regards in achieving my dreams and doing the things that I wanted. It is hard to be dependent on others physically as well and of course it makes me sad among other things that had been affected the way I lived my life which actually had caught me by surprise.

Now I just have to suck it all up and deal with it and make the necessary things to make my life as comfortable as I can and do all the things within my capacities that can uplift my life and my spirits because that is I think the life that I was given and the life that I must continue until my end.