Dear Diary: The Fright Is Real For Me

Last night as I was doing my usual online "work" I felt that worrisome feeling of sudden weakness and my heart is just like it will going to stop anytime. I said to myself "Well I do not want to die yet, not while I am awake." So I just decided to sleep and I even didn't bother to shutdown my laptop.

Fortunately I was able to sleep and I even had an unusual dream which I already had forgotten, it was weird of course as usual. But anyway after three hours of good sleep I felt better again and I think my body is hungry right now although again I am not feeling with my appetite.

Well I wouldn't be so surprised if one of my organs is failing right now because of the burden of one particular medicine that I am taking which is my Parathyroid medicine. It is similar with the smell of that of "Captopril" antihypertensive that my grandmother was taking in which she is using for her hypertension and she died of liver ailment.

Upon investigating for myself that drug also causes liver ailment so I suspected that it was the cause of her death. Now all drugs are a burden to the liver and that Captopril doesn't even affect the appetite while mine does big time that affected my life for more than a year now.

Now I was thinking what more that my medicine would affect my liver? So that is my big worry and so if I would not graduate in taking this medicine sure enough I will die from its side-effects because I know that what I am taking is a poison too to my body and at the same time helping me about its intended way for my bones. I still needed prayers, all the prayers in the world.