Dear Diary: It Is Unfair That I Have A Tailbone Pain While I Do Not Have A Tail

I have hurted my tailbone in the past a couple of times and that is before I had these current significant bone changes because of my Leontiasis and one of those accidents was when I was having a good time with my friends on a dike near the river.

I rode my cousin's banana-seated bike down the dike and through the series of humps on the ground. So the inevitable occurred and I fell on the bike gashing my ankle with a wound, hurting my tailbone which caused me to pass out because of the pain. I can't forget that moment because as I regain consciousness I was on the lap of my cousin waiting for me to wake up.

Then there is this instance where I used the kiddy slide on the kiddy pool and I fell on the shallow water hurting my tailbone again. It was so painful and I thought that I will going to pass out again because of my mild epilepsy. So I didn't pass out and I survived it fortunately because the pain subsided.

But it is different now, the pain in my tailbone is not going off and out. It is just upsetting because it is hard to ride in our vehicle and I have to really be vigilant when our car hits the bumps on the road. I have to use my legs to push my back on the seat just to lift my buttocks when we hit some humps on the road because of the pain on my tailbone that seems not to go away.

I just hope that this tailbone pain gets healed, it robs me of being able to walk too and the problem in walking is compounded by my left hip joint which is my concern because it can debilitate my mobility even firther if it breaks on me. It is just a terrible life to live but I have to manage it all, may God help me.