Dear Diary: It Is A Glorious Dialysis Day Again

I am a bit excited to get hooked up again for my dialysis because it will make me feel better again. Dialysis cleans my system and it feels good when it does that as I can get my appetite go to normal in only short window of time.

So with that I just take the opportunity to eat as much as I can. Some patients just eat junk foods but not me, I would eat regular rice meal although it is sometimes quite fatty and salty but it is better than junk foods because it has protein and calories that my body needs.

I just wished that my dialysis is done everyday because it would allow me to have a normal appetite and not like at this current time that I could not eat regular amounts of foods like a normal person would eat. I am just fortunate that my body is not crashing especially its immunity against other diseases.

I am praying to God to direct my fate into a much better state regarding my health, I still want to win this battle and experience what a normal person would feel. It is really hard to live like this because I also have to fulfill the expense that my health needs in order for it not to crash and burn.

Now I am just enjoying the things that I can have like a tiny opportunity to eat normally during dialysis and then after that my desire for food goes down the drain again. It sucks that way so sometimes I would eat some fruit if available but of course eating regular meals is different.