Dear Diary: If Only A Ringing Ear Can Be Cured By Medicine

Often I would notice my ringing ear and it is very torturous. I am not surprised that I have this condition because of the toxins in my body,, the medicines that I took before, and my current condition.

I could not pinpoint the cause but it might be due to the fact that my ear has the smallest bone and my bones really are in trouble because of my Leontiasis condition. I am still worried that I may get deaf soon but I am also afraid that I will lose my eyesight too if my Leontiasis would get worse.

Those are a real and present danger that I have to both accept and deal with. Sometimes a reality is worse than a nightmare as I myself is just living in a nightmare. For me a nightmare is often pleasant because at least I can run from danger.

But in this life I am living in I cannot run from it and I cannot bury my head in the sand anymore as well. I have done that and my Kidneys failed because medicine cannot cure my Kidneys as the source of their failure was my own body's defense mechanism I just prayed that things might get better, it didn't.

The next time I knew my life had been transformed into something that I had never expected because it had gotten as hard as hell although I never been to hell or would even get the thought of going into it that is why I am a spiritual person that believes that this life is not a real life that we have to strive into but in the heaven where God resides.

I know that my ringing ear might get worse, I cannot do anything about it because I do not know really what is causing it but I still have to press on with this life even though it is for me a living hell.