Dear Diary: I Slept Longer Today Because I Already Don't Feel Good

I should have written a post before this one but I really don't feel good today because of my last dialysis as it didn't cleaned my blood well. My dialysis center doesn't make the blood pumps go faster so as a result the patients don't get much of a cleaning with their blood.

It is one of the reasons that I also do not eat much too so I just resort on eating smaller amounts plus some fruit juices and canned fruits for an added calorie and some nutrients for my body.

I just eat really to survive and get my body going but I needed to eat something so that I won't get weak and lose some more weight but if only I could forgo with eating and drinking I would forget it but we just needed as an organism to eat.

I am not looking at food as the same thing because I regard it as a source of toxin for my body too. It because when our body's cells uses foods it releases creatinine and nitrogen compounds and thus poisoning the body slowly.

So we needed dialysis to soak up the blood with dialysis solution and suck it from the dialyzer membrane with negative pressure so it can be taken off from the body.

My dialysis will be early tomorrow God-willing but it feels an eternity to wait. But I have no choice but to wait patiently until my system get the clean it needs again.