Dear Diary: I Pray The God Would Not Allow My Head To Grow More

Sometimes when I see the reflection of my image through the overhead tablet above my bed I get afraid of what my medical condition that is called "Leontiasis Ossea" would further bring me into. The subject is so terrifying for me that I always wanted not to think or even research about it.

Some patients are quite fortunate enough to get their parathyroid glands operated on early but in my case it might be too late but I think there is still a chance for it. Taking out most of my parathyroid gland will stop the pains in my body, I am still looking for ward to that needed goal of mine whatever it takes and risks are no longer the question, it weights less than the benefits that I would receive in the end.

My appearance is also no longer the case but the function of my mouth is. I would like to get back the impaired function, the way I eat and take fluids without much efforts and mess and the speech impediment is also a major stress and frustration.

Fixing only my mouth is a major problem to solve as the nasal part of my head is really sensitive and if it would also be impaired then my life should never continue. The head of course is the most sensitive and complicated part of the body. we use it with our sight, hearing, tasting food, and smelling, feeling with our lips which most are in danger from Leontiasis.

I might get blind if the bone would continue to pinch my optical nerves, the same case with hearing. So it is a difficult task, a problem in my life that I am wanting to rid off even if it would mean my life because to live with such condition is in itself hell without the heat.