Dear Diary: I Missed My Former Hobbies Which Sucks 😪

I am still getting the memories where I was beside the stream near our home here with an airgun equipped with a home-made spear trying to catch fish. At that time I am still weak and the airgun is very heavy but I am still managing to carry it and pointing it to the water with an absolute patience.

I had seen it as one of the best times of my life no kidding because I am doing what I wanted, my favorite hobby. Now I could not even lift my own legs without my feet and knees hurting so I am just preferring to lay down here on my bed trying to endure the heat of the day and the boring routine of my life.

It IS Just Fun To Shoot

I also am missing the days that I was cooking our home meals and I was able to eat and enjoy it too. The last time I did cooked was ages ago where I just rested my back a few times because it is already hurting. After that attempt I said to myself never I would cook again because it is already impossible to do that.

It feels that it is a kind of unfair life but really, this life is unfair because you have to keep on fighting for your own existence, you have to move and work for the most part. But I cannot move and the only work that I am capable to do is this blogging thing that is really getting hard as days pass by. Too good that I can still do it and I thank God for that.

I Missed Cooking

Now I am just trying to enjoy what I is available for me to enjoy and that is food which sadly I can do only at dialysis times where my appetite would return. Sometimes there is a fruit that I can eat and I would cherish it like I won a lottery. That is just about it in my uninteresting life because my former life had been taken away already.