Dear Diary: I Had A Hallucination For The First Time About 17 Years Ago

It is funny because I slept late because I stayed up to loiter around discord at MSP-PAL channel, it is a nice active community. Anyway I did had a good sleep and woke up not knowing what time it is and where the ef I am, quite a weird thing and I remembered waking up from my "comatose" state from the hospital about 17 years ago.

I thank God I survived that moment because it was my dialysis day and then as we are going to the hospital I suffered a seizure. What happened is that I had a seizure from having a high range of blood pressure and also I had a high amount of creatinine in my blood, it made me crazy as well. So I was out of myself for about a week like I was in a possession of an evil spirit in the hospital.

I never knew what happened during those days but what I can remember was I was being woken up by the doctor and that I am asking for them to dialyze me and then I am out. I was given doses of calming drugs as I was told by my mother because I was so agitated and freaking out and yes the high creatinine levels makes you crazy but I never knew what happened until I woke up in the house already.

I woke up trying to figure out things again, the sound of passing vehicles, the chirp of the birds, and sound o people talking and their presence seems new again to me and I was hallucinating as ef. There was like this moving things around the room. The hanging bag looks beautiful. There is like this kaleidoscope thing on the wall that I can control with my thumb, it was really weird and beautiful when you are hallucinating.

My brain is not working during those times that I was in the hospital that is why. And then I thought that I was paralyzed with my left arm because I can't move it and also I am so weak I could not get up. When I finally managed to walk in the sofa after a day I took the newspaper and couldn't figure out how to turn the pages.

As days passed by my strength went back and I don't know if it was good or bad. I should have died because of the series of seizures I had during those days but my heart just keeps on pumping until now. Thanks be to God.