Dear Diary: I Am So Upset Right Now

in #health6 years ago

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I am trying to purchase and use the medicines that my Endocrinologist is prescribing but I am still not seeing the results and it is more than a year now that I am battling and enduring my parathyroid medicine. She will then I think double the dose which I will definitely not be able to both take and purchase anymore.

What happened in the hospital parking lot is regrettable and sad for me. My father was just helping me and here I am unable to control my mouth, all because of my stupid pain issues.

Even my Kidney doctor I think doesn't want me as her patient anymore as I was asking for a better pain-reliever through my nurses and she was not responding. So I went home not having a prescription that I needed so I just have to take the NSAID which is ringing my ears already.

It will just boils down to my own efforts on how I could go and solve my pain problem. If only suicide is okay then I would do it but it is just foolishness because I had already came into this stage but then again I am in trouble and in a new kind of pain. Nobody can help me.

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You will always be a success story in my book. We all appreciate how much of yourself you give here on steemit. Sometimes I have a hard time managing my emotions too. I have to constantly remind myself that I am the only person who can control my thoughts and feelings, and everything else that hurts me is just trying to get a reaction of out me. Knowing how to deal with the pain, I think you have been through a lot more than most on how to deal with it. My hope is others will care more as you display passion about the truth of your needs.

I just wished that I was not born really @creativetruth because of these things I have been going through it is just too much.

Well @cryptopie You were born and I am grateful for you. Because of you I have learned to be more appreciative and less complaining. Because of you I have actually been able to foster a deeper care for people, and have been able to partially share a dream with you, and that it is to be able to help someone far far away through crypto.
I am truly grateful and appreciative of you @cryptopie for having the courage to open up to the world and letting us in. Your courage and your story is awe inspiring, and will now be remembered here on the Blockchain for as long as this world and blockchain lasts.

I just thank you Sir @streetstyle for all your support for me because you give me hope and I indeed feel that I am loved and that eases the pain, makes me go beyond that I can muster to walk through this impossible life.
So I am choosing to continue my life and wait until what fate will land me into wether it be a history of triumph or a story of defeat I don't care anymore, I just cherish the days that I am given and all the love that I am receiving.

@cryptopie I think you triumph everyday while I know people that are 100% healthy that never do....

I wouldn't think for a moment that the doctor doesn't want your case. You are probably a high profile case with the disease being so rare that she will be famous. I should think you could possibly use this to your advantage somehow by threatening to go elsewhere. Don't be afraid to let your needs be known and expect nothing less that the best care. That is the least you can expect, but I should think they would go over and above for you. You shouldn't take any NSAIDS with kidney problems. You could go into kidney failure taking those. Best case over the counter would be Tylenol but no more than 4000 milligrams a day as long as your liver is normal.

Hello @cryptopie, introduce my name aulia from Indonesia. I have followed your post.

this is the first time I read your post, and you make me sad, for a moment I think after reading your post what if I am in your position, I will definitely feel very sad. But you have to be patient with what you experience right now, I'm sure God has other plans for this disease. and I also pray to God, hopefully your health can be even better.

Make sure you are reading the Bible and praying for the sake of your mind. Have you tried reaching out to others for the funds you may need?
My cousin had cancer at age 22 and has since died. During her battle she opened a GoFundMe and it helped her out immensely through her struggles.

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I am still not losing hope Sir and I do listen to the word of God twice a week here in my home.
Thanks Sir @pwny I tried gofundme but it's no use. My hope is from steemit only.

Sheesh, I hope that your mind can rest easy tonight and a better solution to your pain is found quickly.

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Why yoy upset , what happend my friend ? Your helth is not good .

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