Dear Diary: I Am Really Working Hard Just To Distract Myself From My Health Issues

My work is a kind of hard work and no play as in zero. I do not even play video games unlike before, one reason is my left eye which is damaged by and you guessed it, playing video games.

But my experience in playing videogames, the most enjoyable ones is from a PC and then after my brother had sold it he bought Plystation 2 for me so that I can use it to entertain myself as I am just not working due to being a dialysis patient already.

Then playing with the playstation worn my left eye, I can still see with it but the peripheral vision was damaged and it is just wrecked my vision. Even my right eye is affected now due to my constant PC use.

Now I do not use the full brightness of my laptop and I am just setting it into a minimum so as not to strain my vision any more further because my eyes are my bread and butter now that I use them just to make blogs every day of my life.

It is because I wanted to earn money to help me sustain my medicines which are very expensive especially the Parathyroid drug that is in some way also causing me a degree of misery because I could not have the appetite to eat.

I just really have to work hard and use my remaining strength to make use of my little time left because there might come to a point that I will not be able to do all these things that I do because of my health situation.

I am just thankful that I can still pull it off and blogging nonstop just to put medicines in my body to least lessen the blow of my illness so that it can get bearable for me. I am also still not losing hope and eyeing for my dream surgeries for the reason that I want to win against these things in my body that is trying to pull me down. May God help me.