Dear Diary: How Many Blogs Should Cryptopie Write Before He Lay All His Pen Down? The Answer Is Blowing In The Wind
I am getting tired of writing, I just want to stop and rest eternally because of all my medical predicaments. They are all scaring me and time is apparently, or obviously not on my side.
It is hard to get up and sit around on my bed much less to walk. It is a real deathly struggle to bath myself in the toilet and I am just using the wheelchair with the support of my two aging parents so I I am causing my folks with trouble they do not deserve. They should just be enjoying their old age but with me around they share the misery that I am passing through with no clear indications that I would surpass this mountain of medical maladies.
I do like writing but my persistence although paying up is just trickling inch by inch and with this pace I think my goals will outlive me. At least maybe I have tried and I pray that God will take my spirit because of the pain in my body and the vision of my eyes that is failing as I write this blog post.
My desire to last a little bit more and my longing to die is equal and both I would happily accept if either would be given to me. But it is really hard to live in pain and having a difficulty in breathing and failing health with not much support from my family.
I did prayed to die in the past but wanted to get born in another family. It is a silly thing that I thought about because of the failing of my relatives, friends, and family to help me in this medical mess.
But my friends here at steemit is patching those needs up and I thank them for that and hope that God would repay their kindness to me. I appreciate it all with every bit of good words, thoughts, and kindness. Nothing that I could say but God bless and keep you all.
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I cannot even begin to relate to what you must be going through @crytopie.
I do pray for you every night. Really.
I know this is easy for me to say becuase IAm not in the kind of pain you're in but God has each given us a Race to complete.
And evidently you are alive so you're Race is not over yet
. It pains me to see the physical pain and mental pain you're in.
But please finish that Race no matter what. We will always be here for you no matter what my friend
The words you write today sadden me, and partly I understand your sorrow as it is a very hard battle, nevertheless God is the only one who can give us consolation, and he will know even when your mission is fulfilled, you have been a great warrior, and it only remains to pray for God to intercede for you, and raise that courage friend @cryptopie
I'm sad that you're experiencing so much pain and suffering. And glad that your Steemit friends can help a little bit.
Friend, @criptopie, encouragement, we must not lose faith, only God knows where to lead our lives. A hug and do not give up.
You only live one day at a time and you enjoy it according to your capacity, life is a gift, even when we are facing an illness and we think that we are a burden for our family, they are there and you should enjoy it and return with gratitude, and love. God bless you, may God give you great strength and soothe your pain.
It is normal that you think so having so many problems, but if you find the strength here in the community then do not lose hope and desire to write while you get what you need here