Dear Diary: Dialysis Time Once Again And There Was Another Big Dip In The Markets

I am happy once again that I will be hooked up once again for my dialysis and I am looking forward for the clean feel it gives me. That almost instant great good feeling of being clean inside is so priceless for me that even though I am crashing my blood pressure sometimes and the inconveniences it bring to my life I am still taking it just to prolong my life.

If only I could stop going for my dialysis and it will cause my death abruptly then it might be still okay but stopping will just cause me agony of a lingering slow death which I am really so afraid of.

I am also afraid of dying while I am aware of it especially when my heart starts to beat slowly when my blood pressure is crashing, I do not like that.

I don't know but I feel that I am just losing hope with my health, my spirit is willing but for my body it is a different story because I cannot last long with several factors going on within my body.

Adding to my sadness is the big dip again in the markets today and it sucks because of course the value of cryptocurrencies especially our earning here are getting a bad beating as it is just reduced more than a quarter or more so it is harder to earn and it threatens my very existence.

We hope that the bear market would recover in the coming year because it does affect lives that depend on cryptos like in my case because no one here in my relatives are helping my but only here at steemit so I pray to God that blessing would pour out on us soon and the bear market to stop sooner.