Sorry to hear about your loss, I really sometimes undergo the same thing and realize what a short life it is.

Life is sometimes a trick to all of us. When one was young, you may long for growing up asap to be your own self. When reaching an age of maturity, you wish things would go back to where it started, and as if you were able to fix, many things. An utmost wish but we are no saint, after all.

Dragging myself over ups and downs of life, I want any bit of my life shall leave behind a story. Be it sad or happy. And that, I've lived my life in my self-set way, and up to what my heart have told me to. A life of being able to see beauty, values in this harsh world. A life of being able to wander & have no set burden of expectations from people around. A life of being able to stay who you are, even you may be a weirdo. A simple story to be told, and make people feel relieved for any second of their hard lives.

I'm still under progress on this plan, but I have a very good feeling that I can somehow make it till the deadline :) Thanks for your reading.