逝者已矣，生者如斯：在无常中珍惜当下

已经停更很长一段时间了。当然，主要是因为父亲病重和离世的事情。回想起来，在去年春节的时候，带着小宝贝和父亲（爷爷）一起燃放烟花，开心地度过春节的时候，我们怎么也不会想到在圣诞节前夕，会经历生离死别。这一人生中最重要的时刻之一，在这个圣诞节之后，我已经是一个无父无母之人了。

父亲不幸罹患胰腺癌，经历过之后，才知道“癌王”之名名不虚传。短短两个月的时间，就把父亲从一个和正常人差不多的样子折磨得骨瘦如柴，最终驾鹤西去。这更是让我深刻体验到了什么叫世事无常。无常才是万事万物的本源和最基本的属性。愈发觉得世间人们追求的那些财富地位，不过是虚幻的烟云。每个人都应该更加珍惜当下，因为当下拥有的最终都会如烟云般消散。逝者已矣，活着的人还要好好活着。虽然这段时间心情一直很沉重，但生活还是要继续。

这两天又重看了大导演库布里克的电影《大开眼界》。电影中的大富豪威胁汤姆·汉克斯的台词，其实也蕴含着非常朴素的道理。他说，“人们总在死去，生活还是要像平常一样继续下去，直到不再正常为止。”在影片中他是在威胁汤姆·汉克斯不要继续调查下去，否则会遭到来自上层社会的秘密社团的报复。但我们每个人的寻常生活又何尝不是如此呢？

其实，我们每个人的命运都被一把无情的大手所掌控着。在命运之前，每个人也都是无力的，只能尽可能维持正常的生活，直到这一切都变得无法维持下去。

这几天，可能会回忆一些父亲患病时的事情，也算是对这段经历的一个告别。继续前行。

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It's been down for a long time. Of course, mainly because of my father's serious illness and death. Looking back, in the Spring Festival last year, with the little baby and father (grandfather) together fireworks, happy to spend the Spring Festival, how we would not have thought that on Christmas Eve, will experience the death. One of the most important moments of my life, after this Christmas, I have no father and no mother.

Unfortunately, his father suffered from pancreatic cancer, and after experiencing it, he knew that the name of "cancer King" was true. In just two months, he tortured his father from a normal and almost like a skeleton, and finally died. This made me deeply experience what is called the impermanence of the world. Impermanence is the source and most fundamental attribute of all things. I feel more and more that the wealth and status that people pursue in the world are just illusory clouds. Everyone should cherish the present more, because what they have now will eventually disappear like a cloud. The dead have passed away, and the living have to live well. Although the heart has been heavy during this time, life must go on.

These two days, I re-watched the great director Kubrick's film "Eye-opening". The line in the movie where the rich man threatens Tom Hanks also contains a very simple truth. "People die all the time," he said. "Life goes on as normal until it's no longer normal." In the film, he is threatening Tom Hanks not to continue the investigation, or he will face retaliation from the secret society of the upper class. But what about the ordinary life of each of us?

In fact, the fate of each of us is controlled by a ruthless hand. Before fate, everyone is also powerless, and can only maintain as normal a life as possible until all this becomes untenable.

These days, I may recall some things when my father was ill, and it is also a farewell to this experience. Keep going.