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Claudia came closer to me and put her hands on my hips. “You love me because you find me beautiful, and because I can’t look after myself and need you, it made you love me. What of when I am old and ugly? I will not be your lover until I know you love me as I am, Swedish bluntness and all.” She reached up on tiptoes and gave me a peck on the cheek and with a smile in her eyes she stepped back. Helplessly I looked at her and left, going to the bedroom with my little harem.

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By the time we were in the bedroom I was fuming. “How the hell am I supposed to prove I love her for who she is and not because of qualities she has. What am I supposed to love her for?”

Dommi chose to answer me. “Roberto, it is not wrong what she said, but what she really needs is time for herself. She is only eleven and is afraid of loving you. You’ll think I’m being silly, but I have a feeling she is worried that you won’t love her for long if she comes to you as a child - most of the girls have that worry now and then, they keep thinking that as an adult you’ll get tired of their childish conversations.”

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I forced myself to calm down. “The first one who ever! I did say I want to wait for her, enjoy her as she is now. Guess I better make patience. As for the childishness nonsense, surely everyone has felt how I yearn for it and sorrow that they are born speaking and thinking like adults, in so many ways?”

She nodded. “They feel you, Roberto, please don’t make an issue of it. It is not as if they can change the way they are born.”

Cherine cut in, “I would not wait for Claudia for too long, if I were you.”

“Why not Cherine?”

“If she grows to only love you as a daddy, she will never become our wife.”

“What am I supposed to do then? Woo her? I’m not very good at that.”

“I thought you were!”

“I knew you would say that Diana. I did not really woo you. I just showed you that I care for you and that you matter to me as a person.”

“What do you think wooing is then? Seduction?” They were all smiling at me, so I decided to drop the subject.

Diana said, and she was not teasing me, she thought she was helping me with a suggestion. “Poor Claudia, since Wendy joined us, she must be the only one you have not played puppy with.”

“Okay, I’ll go do so now.”

As I slowly walked to the door I was grabbed by a giggling bunch of them and pulled back to the bed. Being in a teasing mood I pulled a fast one on them. I projected myself back to a nine year old version of myself. Normally they would have been delighted, but they were all eighteen years old and feeling extra horny as they had removed the dampening and needed something almost violent, so they just stared at me. Wendy was the fastest. She changed herself back to a little six year old Wendy and as she stepped out of the jumble of clothing at her feet she gave me a huge grin as her eyes darkened. I have never seen a six year old face look at me that way before, it was awesome. The others pulled back, watching her with amazement on their faces. My joke had backfired on me, there was no way I could change back now.

Cherine caught my thoughts and smothering her giggles disappeared into the bathroom with all the others following her as she sent them my predicament and dismay. Wendy ignored them and on her knees by my feet she stared at my tiny penis which was already rigid. She ran her hands over my smooth thighs, enjoying the difference of my childish skin. It felt so nice having her hands running over my skin, touching me everywhere and the nice feelings were starting to ignite a fire in me.

The girls all came back in and I saw us through the eyes of Dommi. We made quite a couple, a small blonde girl with a dark haired young boy. The contrast was almost beautiful. I lay down and she pulled her body over mine and as she brought her mouth to my lips I rolled us over. I heard the clicks of the shutter as Cherine took photos of us.

Wendy exclaimed, afterwards, “God that was beautiful.”

I chuckled. “You are spoiling me love, I was supposed to say that to you.” I kissed her again as I rolled off to resume my normal size.

“Don’t do it! Stay as you are!” Little Dommi was crouched by us as she stared at me with a fever in her eyes.

“You sure the little Dommi will still love me if I do?” In answer she just flung herself at me, the very action telling me that this was almost little Dommi in fact too. She was not going to give me time to recover so I pressured the healer to act fast. Movement caught my eye, it was Samantha lying down apart from us. I felt her enter my mind.

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Even as I grappled with Dommi, a demanding hot little tornado, and responded to her with a keen excitement that bubbled up from the depths of my memories of my little love, I spoke to Samantha. *Welcome love, come to share from me?* *She is special to you as she is now, why?* *This little girl was my first ever. I’ll let you go into my memories; see for yourself, as I will be busy for a while, with another six to go!* She floated off into the depths of my mind as I returned to Dommi.

Wendy was pulling her stunt again, floating over us to get a better view. I wished she could teach me how to, it must feel wonderful to float like that. That made me think of floating with Wendy while making love and I wondered why we had not done so yet. I made a mental note to ask her later. Her face had a look of adoration as she gazed at me, I was fascinated to see her eyes change, darken until they seemed black and I saw the tiny flickers of fire in their deep well of darkness.

The pressure on my back lessened and soon I was not touching the sheets and I realised Wendy had heard my thoughts. I held Dommi to me as we floated. I lifted Dommi slightly and was not surprised to feel her weight has disappeared. Floating, we loved, and at the moment of our climax, Wendy spun us so that we revolved around ourselves. When the spin slowed and I touched the sheets again I felt relief. Sex, I decided, is not that much fun without gravity.

I spent a while just re-acquainting myself with the tiny body I so adore, tasting and deeply breathing in her scents. I refused to go further, just making small movements as my fingers and lips helped to build her up to her orgasm. She was disappointed, but saw the few drops of blood even though the little tear had already been repaired and did not complain at being frustrated by my reluctance to hurt her further.

I pulled Tina and Rosie to me.

*I saw your special Sunday. I loved the way you felt. Even then you were so tender and gentle. You have a caring soul Robbie.* *Not my fault love.* *I also saw myself as I appeared at your dance. Will I really be so beautiful?* Factually, I replied, *How can I know? That image was just the way I saw you.* There was silence for a while. My mouth tasted sour. As the taste got stronger I realised it was pure lemon. *My Samantha taking revenge?*

Her ‘voice’ had a chuckle to it, *Cherine was right, your sense of humour is going to get you into serious trouble one day.* *I just hope our Kaleidoscope World will also have a good sense of humour once we go to live there. Oh come on Sam, condensed milk after lemon is not funny!* *An acquired taste maybe?* *Okay, you bubble of fun, out of my mind.*

The two wee ones, as adults, were not so demanding. They did not expect full sex. To tell the truth, it was more of a pleasure for me to kiss their soft lips and caress their adult faces. I sat up on my elbow and traced the contours of their features and filled my mind with their beauty which is so different to each other. I looked to identify features that belong to their mothers and myself, but could not see much of myself in them.

I lay back to rest a moment, my eyes closing, giving my healer some time to rid me of the drained feeling. When I opened them I found my little dreamer gazing at me with a small smile twitching her lips.

“If you look carefully at Sam you will see more of yourself in her. She was daddy’s girl from before her birth.”

“Are you saying you all chose your looks?”

“To a degree. I would have looked even more Greek than I do, if I had not made some minor changes. Luckily the main features were good. Do you like my art work?”

“That must explain it!”

“Explain what Robbie? That we all have certain shapes that endear us to you?”

“I was wondering at my luck. For instance, lots of girls have brown nipples with the surrounding area, the areola, extending over a large part of their breasts. All of you have the lovely coral pink that I love. Not one of you has large or too tiny breasts, you all, with your minor differences, are my ideals.”

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“You were being polite? You did not mention the shape and sizes of our sex. Like all of us have more prominent mounds. You kept on having sex during the pregnancies and all the girls felt what were your pleasures, sensed from your mind what excited you the most. Since you are the only man we will ever know, why shouldn’t we be all you dream of?”

I did not like what I was hearing. “All this time and I did not realise what was happening, after all, it is not difficult for little girls to be perfectly shaped while they still wait for time to highlight the features which define them as women, and I lacked the experience to guess what you had done, but, I was surprised that even as eighteen year olds you are so perfect and similar.”

“You have not noticed that the shape of the sex of Wendy has changed?”

“I did not. Don’t tell me she got rid of her sweet little petal, I would have noticed!”

“No, on her you find it lovely and it remains the enchantment belonging only to Wendy. No, I meant the shape. Her mound is just that little bit more prominent, the shape less long and narrow than it was.”

“It really was not necessary. I loved her as she was. I do not need carbon copies, love, the variety is what makes it exciting. You said something else that worries me. Why would I be the only man in your lives? Are you saying I will not have sons?”

“Do you think your sons would not be sons of their father? They will want their own circles my love. Do not worry, their circles will almost be parts of ours, their Worlds will form a system that revolves around us; you will never really lose them.”

I was awed by her. “You can see the future?”

“No love, we make our futures. Unless you fight us for some reason. Or you do something stupid like finding a way to really die. Why have you become so suicidal? It scares me, even all my stories are now dark and filled with fear, even when I don’t want them to be. I don’t enjoy making up my stories anymore.”

“Oh god! You are breaking my heart girlie. You are my dreamer, please don’t let me take that away from you.” Tears, unbidden, flowed out of the corners of my eyes as I stared at the ceiling, no longer able to look at her and her pain.

“Why then Robbie? Why? Are we so terrible?”

I gave a weak smile for her. “This is bad enough without you needing to dramatise it love. I have already tried to explain. What else can I say?”

“Can’t we find a less drastic answer that takes away the need for you to kill yourself? You know, I tried to write a short story about you and all I could write of it was the title, I named the untold story ‘The Hedgehog Man’.”

“I like the title, but I suppose you’ll tell me I am missing out on the implications.” I was not, it was too obvious, but I could not admit it, not unless I can find the answer they need.

“Robert you are the most defensive man I know. You even use your humour to hide behind it. If you are not being adored, if one word of criticism is levelled at you, we all hold our breaths in fear. Feel the girls, they panicked when I said that!”

“You too Cherine? That I did not expect. Not with the way you tease me.”

Meli admonished me, “Don’t pick on her Robbie. At least she is willing to stand at the edge of the cliff for your sake.”

My heart had sunk as I thought of what she was saying. Surely she could not be right!? Deep inside I could feel the fear in all of them so I knew my dreamer had shown great courage in speaking of this to me. My heart went out to all of them.

“I do not understand, if I have caused this fear in all of you, why hasn’t the protector done something about it?”

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“It identifies itself as being part of the problem and does not know what to do. You need to work this one out by yourself love. Even we cannot help you.” Her fingers turned my face so that I had to stare into her eyes. “Please promise me, on your love for us, that you will try to think this through without allowing yourself to get depressed to an extreme again?”

I was hurting, so I spoke without thinking. “What if I said to you that your dreaminess was making me unhappy; that I felt the worlds of your imagination were keeping you away from me. That I missed you and wanted you to stay in this world with me? What I’m trying to say love is that I love you, each one of you exactly as you are. Why…”

She was staring at me as I talked and I sensed a change come over her as she closed her eyes. She opened her eyes again and they were clear, direct. The dreamy look was gone.

“What have you done!”

“I blocked it off. What did you think Robbie? The only reason I was able to live in my worlds of the imagination were because I felt so loved and accepted as I am in this one. I do not use it to hide, I thought you knew I took the love I feel here with me there. I will stay here until you have found a solution.”

“I do not operate at my best when I am hurting Meli.” I saw her stubbornness. “Cherine, Dommi, can’t you explain to her?”

“It is important she dream Robert?”

“You know it is. It would be like Wendy never singing again.”

“Thanks for the idea. You do not hurt at our fear, but you hurt if we cannot dream or sing?” as Cherine replied, I felt Wendy change.

“In a way, yes. Without dreams and song, what is life. Okay, point made. But please don’t do it this way. I promise I will even go to Themi for therapy - he helped you, maybe he can help me.”

“That will be wonderful, then we all can dream and sing again.”

Two of my babies were being amputated and there was nothing I could do. I shut my eyes and sank into my despair. That I should be responsible for this was a wound that would eat the heart out of me. I needed to find a solution. A thought, a feeling, something made me open my eyes again.

“What else. You might as well speak up, get it all out in one go.”

“I told you Meli, I knew he would feel it.”

“Feel what?”

Meli stared at me, suddenly anxious. “This is a difficult one Robbie. I do not know how to tell you without hurting you.”

“Then hurt me damn it!! Just tell me!”

“You are making it impossible for us to relax. You…are you sure I must Cherine?”

“You want me to tell him?”

“No. Robbie, you keep idealising us. We are not just normal girls with our little flaws that you love. You see us as perfect creatures and we are forced to try and be what you see in us. That is why we cannot even play anymore. We want to be loved for who we are, not because we are what you think we are.”

“I thought I knew your good and your bad points. I thought I even loved your flaws. Seems even the most basic part of me, my love for you is wrong.” It felt as if a knife had been plunged into my heart and as it twisted I cried out. “Then why do you love me. Is everything just a lie!!”

“Oh Robbie...” the heartbreak in her voice sent me tearing into myself, pain and anger tearing at my sanity. There was a white flash and I felt myself trapped, held by acid cobwebs - and then darkness, no self-awareness that I can remember.

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I hope you enjoy reading this story of fantasy, adventure and love. Yes, most of all, always of empathy and love.

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