Polarized Poetry - Hidden Cave

Hey there. I'm back with another spoken word/song/poem thing.
I'm having trouble picking the right beat for this one, there's two I like a lot... A rap beat and a metal beat and I just can't seem to decide.

So... If anyone happens to see this and have a few moments I would appreciate it if anyone who listens might tell me which one they like more?

By the way... Sorry if I suck, lol. I'm still really new to this.
A way that I like to learn certain kinds of new things is to just sort of put in the effort to try and then figure it out as I go.

I have received some positive feedback for previous uploads and when I listen to my work so far I don't think it's horrible, I actually really like most of it a lot... Yet, I do certainly recognize I'm very new to this and coming from a place more of passion than skill and I have a lot to learn!

I'd like to say this again that I've never taken any courses or classes or read any books on how to rap or sing or anything like that.. I watched a few videos on YouTube and they were mostly vocal exercises, so... I don't know much of anything, lol.
But... Some of my favorite artists do spoken word sort of like this and don't sing or rap and I'll try to learn how to sing and rap more in the future as well!

One final thing I want to say is that, there's a few parts in this poem that are negative or use curse words and I really wanna try to cut down on that.

The more I learn about non violent communication the more I reflect and look at how I speak and I want to put out more encouraging, uplifting and positive language than angry, shaming and divisive and all that.

However... I created a lot of poetry with very strong or negative language in the past and I want to still share those and honor that part of me.

Even though I'm changing, I still see some of the beauty in my older ways of thinking and I'm still not even sure what the truth is and may never find out so maybe I was right before and I'm wrong now, I don't know... Either way, I want to honor my older ideas and still share them even if I may not totally 100% agree with how I worded such things in the past.

This one isn't even that bad, though, I definitely have some poems that are much more offensive or belligerent or obnoxious and I was kind of aiming for that to some degree sort of like someone like Eminem is often absurd and shocking and someone like Trump is also strong with his language and many others tend to get more attention for being really piercing or powerful in those kinds of ways.

But... Even if it gets me less attention, I now feel like the more peaceful and more respectful route is one I want to explore and I think I'm going to work on a full album of sort of positive/inspirational/uplifting kinds of poems as I realize more and more how powerful language can be and I want to put out more helpful, healing and empowering songs as opposed to the "I'm so angry at the bad stuff happening in the world!" vibe I've put off so many years, and that's still a part of me... I'm still mad at the bad things happening, I'm just trying to express myself more peacefully and less negatively these days.

I'm not saying I'm never going to make an angry poem/song again either, I might. I'm just working in a more peaceful direction right now and I look at some of my old lyrics and I'm like... Well, that was divisive, unnecessary and offensive.

I think I can do better, especially since I'm not so incredibly depressed these days and am much happier and I think that will shine through as well in important ways.

Anyways... I've said enough for now. Peace!
Will put the lyrics below and also links to the audio if you want to listen.

(Rap version)

(Metal version)

"Hidden Cave"

The world seems to want to be deceived, so enlighten them.
And... I'm not saying I'm enlightened, though, I have let enough light in to brighten.
There's enough in my eyes to frighten... Enough in my line of sight to realize something's not right since..
Life is like a Twilight Zone episode that's a million times more heightened and intense.
The only way you won't see it, is if you willfully ignore the evidence.
A providence of precedence, or nothing new under the sunsets?
Clever measurements paint a picture of an eternal adversary to go up against.
Into a cave of darkness, our shadow self represents.
Why the heck should I go back in after escaping such muck?
The answer is actually pretty simple and it makes a lot of sense..
Cause.. Others are still stuck.
And even if they attack me or don't care.
I gotta try, seeing as I would also want help if I was left behind there.
How could I just leave them in their prison?
That's no way to live life.. It just isn't.
A hidden wisdom shared freely for those with the eyes to see.
And the ears to listen, be careful in that which you cling to perceive and believe.
This planet is deceptively riddled.
Ruled by sociopathic creeps.
Ruthlessly playing the majority like fiddles.
Such a terrible music emitted, it puts many to sleep.
Consciousnesses overflowing with shit filled.
In a confused haze losing sight of their dreams.
Organized religions lucidly spreading sickness as if it's a gift.
Pied Pipers of all kinds intruding upon our innocence and existence.
Do you really want to go so lightly in to the depths of depravity?
Or is it better to be made heavy by the empathic gravity of all this?
How about a balance within?
What's it mean to be human? Are we noble or are we abusive?
Maybe it's a combination of the two alchemized through an intelligent foolishness which insists?
What a strange rift.
Spirits flipping and twisting.
Catching and missing, mixed.
Reflections making impressions.
Rippling and ripping into different dimensions.
And then...
Wondering... If it will kill me?
To embrace these feelings?
And I remember... Some things are more important than staying alive.
Like doing what you think is right.
So be it if I don't survive.
Passionate resistance to the petty tyrants in our our lives and in our minds.