Venting

Okay, so where do I begin?
First off im sorry for the recent spam of lets play videos. It was a terrible idea. They suck and i suck. I have decided to discontinue the lets play videos and wait until I am able to stream, tho idk if i will do that either.
The music will continue. Im just having a really bad evening and almost deactivated my Twitter for personal reasons, but didnt because i knew it would close off contact with someone I love very dearly.
Which brings me to the next thing. I love him very much and im sure he loves me too, but my stupid brain is trying to tell me otherwise.
I just feel like a huge disappointment. Ive lost so much motivation to do anything. I had to block someone on Twitter that i care about just because i get triggered by some of the things they say.
Im sorry. I wish my mind didnt try and turn me against the people i care about. I wish i was better. Im getting tired of crying over nothing.

~Tess