Dear Diary: I Missed My Old Appetite Real Badly

I remember that time when I went into my cousin's home and I saw some Coke softdrink with it's resealable cap, a 500 mL bottle and it is half full then I learned that my cousin was drinking some of it with a meal of just rice and fish sauce. It is because my cousin has no money and and skimping on food as he was unemployed and just living with my uncle's home with his second wife and their children and her daughter from another man which became my cousin's wife little later.

A meal of rice with just fish sauce is what I had tried before, it was delicious given that you are quite hungry and has a normal appetite. But I cannot do that now and I just wished that I can get the ability to eat it but now because I am enduring the effects of my medicine which really affected on the way I eat and it is being noticed by my father because I am not eating the way I used to.

Before, I was able to eat some simple stir fried noodles with even no other added ingredients into it except some carrots cabbage and chicken liver and gizzard. Then I would ask for some rice to go with it and I could eat much. I would go to the toilet many times in a day because I was having a good appetite for food as I could eat much and I thought I could gain weight.

But after I had taken my parathyroid medicine my appetite was devastated and I couldn't eat as normally as I could. I would just prefer the tastiest food and sometimes I would ask for a roast chicken or something with a gravy or sauce, the tastiest foods so that I could eat. More often I would drink much so that I could swallow the food that I eat and it just makes me waterlogged faster and I get breathless in turn, it was bad.

It all just makes me wish that this was not happening as my old appetite disappeared and I miss it really badly. I could enjoy my simple foods before but currently that was not the case and I have a poor appetite. I cannot take out my medicine as it really is needed fo me to survive my rare condition of my bone. I still am eyeing about the possibility of parathyroidectomy so that I could diminish or even eliminate the need for taking my medicine as it just affects my life in a bad way despite of its miraculous effects that it had done for me.