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What does it mean to be a light-worker? (@TribeSteemUp Bi-Weekly Question)

in tribesteemup •  14 days ago

It feels like I just answered the last @TribeSteemUp Bi-Weekly Question, and here we are at the next one. I guess this is in large part because I've historically waited until the last day before answering, haha! This question was submitted by @Eco-Alex, and as always the wonderful @TruckLife-Family is presenting the question and collecting everyone's responses.

It was so wonderful to see this pop up as the new question this morning, because just last night I was speaking with my partner @thelynx about my journey from 25 years down one path to the last 5 years down a completely different one, which I decided I would create my next post about... and voila!

What does it mean to be a light-worker?



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The basic concept

This has a different twist to it from many of the TSU questions so far, in part because it is actually such a loosely defined, open-ended term. To me, personally, the term light-worker is very similar to the term guru, one who helps move from darkness to light.

From the Advayataraka Upanishad:

गुशब्दस्त्वन्धकारः स्यात्‌ रुशब्दस्तन्निरोधकः।
अन्धकारनिरोधित्वात्‌ गुरुरित्यभिधीयते॥ १६॥

Translated to English:

The syllable gu means darkness, the syllable ru, he who dispels them,
Because of the power to dispel darkness, the guru is thus named.

To my mind, the key to being a light-worker is really just that, one who works to move themselves & the world from darkness into light. Obviously the words dark & light have a whole lot of different meanings, so for this context I would like to list a few things I would consider to be on the "dark" end of that spectrum and a few on the "light" end.

Dark traits:

  • Ignorance
  • Hierarchy
  • Violence
  • Lack
  • Passing on one's trauma

Light traits:

  • Enlightment
  • Sovereignty
  • Peace
  • Abundance
  • Healing & integrating one's trauma

Many light-workers manifest their purpose here on Earth as healers, by uplifting & empower the downtrodden & oppressed, as musicians spreading powerful life-changing messages, or maybe as those folks you see with signs that say "free hugs".

As with any part of our lives and the effects they have in the world, I feel that the most important focus of light-workers should be to live by the adage: "Be the change you want to see in the world". By healing & integrating our own trauma, by taking responsibility for our lives, by staying grounded in compassion, and by doing the things that we love, the things that bring us joy, we are having the most positive effect we possibly can.

While I was looking for images to go with this post, I stumbled across a piece called What kind of Lightworker are you? by Rebecca Campbell (please note that I am not endorsing her, and have not read through her site besides this one post), where she breaks down 2 types of light workers, which I found quite interesting:

Newly Awakened Lightworkers tend to have a significant awakening experience spurred on by a life event. Once awakened it is hard to go back to sleep and there is a feeling that things can never be the same. Their consciousness has shifted and they may decide to answer the call to be of service. Newly awakened Lightworkers seem to be able to jump right in and make big life changes in response to answering the newly awakened call within them.

Retro Lightworkers come in knowing. They have been doing this work for lifetimes and as a result may find that they have considerable fear around stepping forward (due to a soul memory of persecution). They are likely to have always had a knowing that they were here for a reason, that there was work to do and a feeling that time is running out. Erecting a spiritual closet from a young age is common for this type of Lightworker and as a result, revealing to the world who they really are is a scary process for them.



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Buddha on the 4 kinds of lives

Yesterday, my beloved introduced me to a concept presented in the Tamonata Sutta (AN 4:85), where Buddha said that there are 4 kinds of people in the world:

There are these four types of people to be found existing in the world. Which four? One in darkness who is headed for darkness, one in darkness who is headed for light, one in light who is headed for darkness, and one in light who is headed for light.

This model definitely seems to fit in a lot of ways, although reading the whole of the actual text puts it in the context of the extremely materialistic, caste-system culture of the times, and doesn't quite align to the same extent, at least for me. Seeing these four possible ways to be definitely gives an interesting lens with which to analyze our lives. Which one of those 4 lives would you say that you are living?



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My path from darkness to light

For the first 25 years of my life, my experience and much of what I added to the world was pretty undeniably dark. My childhood was one full of pain, separation, being repressed, violence, anger, sadness, and control. From my parents, both of whom were quite young and dealing with their own addictions & traumas, to the government indoctrination camps that I was sent to, the message was pretty consistently that my role was to submit to the will of others, not question what I was told, and that my emotions & wants had no space to be expressed.

Thankfully, I didn't cave to the control mechanisms, and I was definitely considered something of a problem child. I spent my early life filled with anger and sadness, with no idea how or container to release & express it. This led to multiple suicide attempts, a variety of addictions, dishonesty, theft, violence, and so so many forms of wrong-doing. As a young child (1st grade or so), I actually dropped one of my pet hamsters in a jar of water and watched it drown... as you can imagine, when I learned of the term and the indicators, I spent quite some time I was pretty sure that I was a sociopath.

In late 2011, I had a powerful experience with Psilocybe azurescens, which blew apart much of my old understanding of reality and ideas about myself. The next year was by far the darkest I had ever experienced, partially because right after that experience I discovered & binge-watched the show Dexter right as I began doing LSD a lot, mostly by myself.

At the end of 2012, my world got blown open in a whole new way as I learned about GMOs & all the other poisons people are being fed, the idea of "coping mechanism" instead of just problems with me, the idea of energy & auras, and SO many more things. From there, I began purging all the toxins from my life, starting with what I ate & drank. That quickly made way for psychological & emotional purging, deleting all the music I had with lyrics I wouldn't want to practice as mantras, and driving myself towards the light. I could go on and on about my journey since then (and have, just check out my blog), and if you'd like the long version of my first 28 years (up to when I found Steemit in June of 2016), check out my #introduceyourself post... Warning, it's really long :-)



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Finding balance

Because this physical reality that we find ourselves in seems to be one of polarities, based on vibration, there is always movement from crests to troughs, highs to lows, light to dark. I don't see a way to stay static, just at the high or just at the low, without being dead basically. Change is the only constant in reality, and as long as we are going to ride the waves, my goal for myself at least is to raise the baseline (meaning both my highs & lows are higher) and to shorten the amplitude (the distance between crest & trough), moving towards balance.

This little image I just made sort of shows what I'm trying to describe. The old versions of me had massive amplitudes (mood & energy swings), with the lows being active suicide attempts and the highs being a kind of a detached boredom. The current version of me, and the one that is ever unfolding as I continue my self-work has much smaller amplitudes (more stable mood & energy), with the lows being maybe some slight boredom or sadness over something that's occurred, and the highs being a feeling of total bliss and fulfillment.

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The image up at the top of this section is from the Star Wars universe, and displays the oaths of the Jedi Order, the Sith, and the Grey Jedi. If you are much of a SW geek, you'll remember that the Jedi Order was waiting for the chosen one to come and "bring balance to the force", thinking that would be something they wanted. What they hadn't taken into account apparently was the fact that the Jedi (light) were a massive galaxy-spanning organization, with hundreds of member and immense socio-political power, while the Sith (darkness) were living 1 or 2 at a time, mostly in hiding... so obviously that coming more into balance means a heck of a lot more darkness.

Where we're at now on Earth, there has been a VAST imbalance towards darkness for thousands of years, so the need for light is great (thus the massive paradigm shift we are experiencing now and the flood of light-workers, freedom fighters, and change-makers coming onto the planet). I see myself as a part of this shift towards the light, and I want to shine my light brightly, but I also see the value in the darkness, as a contrast and opportunity for growth if nothing else, and am interested in helping humanity and the Earth as a whole shift things in a way similar to what I described for myself above.


This video is not speaking explicitly in terms of "light-workers", but I feel that its message certainly resonates, and if you've enjoyed this post I think you'll enjoy this video as well :-)



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If you enjoyed this, you may enjoy some of these highlights of my blog:

"Greatest Hits/Table of Contents" of my first 2 years on Steemit

You've Created Your Steemit Account and You're Ready to Get Started... What Now? [New Steemians Start-Up Guide]

The 8 Pillars of @TribeSteemUp: Clarification, Refinement, and Re-Casting the Spell

The Status, Vision, and Needs of Real Life: The Role-Playing Game



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I haven't been reading much lately. So glad I decided to read this. I usually wait until I've answered a question before reading other answers too, so it was even extra inspiration to read this one.
I so identified with the retro light worker as I'm pretty sure I've been burned at the stake for being a mouthy woman more than once. Yet, I've also had a reiki master (the one who attuned me to I and II) tell me I needed to reign in my heart chakra so it wouldn't split open. There is a need for balance. I've resisted it because iv always associated that with mediocrity, preferring the roller coaster. At 43, I'm about ready for a little more mellow. We do, for sure, need the contrast in order to see where we want to go forward, but I'm definitely ready for that middle path a little more. I'm a total Star Wars geek, and I've even resisted the gray Jedi code, especially because I saw return of the Jedi in theaters. I now begin to see the wisdom, and I expect episode 9 will reflect this same evolution. It's like the great story of my life.
As a passionate mama, it hurts my heart to read all you went through, and I can't even begin to imagine watching Dexter on acid. Holy shit. Dexter freaked me out sober. I regularly had to close my eyes. I'm so glad you found your way to healing. I realize more and more how lucky I am to have had the relatively mellow childhood that I had. The long years of being awake in a dark world do begin to take a toll though.
Thanks for a super thoughtful post. May the light continue to spread and grow brighter.

I totally resonated with the retro lightworker, that actually explains an awful lot. I will hopefully be able to participate in this next time!!!

It's also great to read other people's accounts of their awakening and process of it. It seem's many of us have similar backgrounds which you don't often relate to with the people around you in real life. You start talking to people online and it's like yea, we've all been through some pretty messed up stuff, it's part of the process it seems.

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That's awesome :-) I was really stoked to find that piece, it definitely seems like having an idea of those things could help give a lot of folks some context & guidance with their experiences of life.

I've definitely found that SO many of the most powerful lightworkers I know came from some pretty intensely difficult early lives. Wonderful to see how much healing and good can come from such pain.

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Yea i don't think i've met any that have had it easy. It's definitely a catalyst, which brought clarity for me- Like oh it was nothing personal, it's just what i needed to wake up. Still working through the pain though, but the understanding most certainly helps.

Also thank you for recommending me into @earthtribe.

@elamental informed me and so I wish to Thank-You. I was really hoping to find like minded people on here and it really does mean a lot to be part of it, and that someone noticed my writing as being that way inclined. Takes nothing to give thanks.

Thanks :D

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It surely seems to be! The pain is something I find myself ever digging up new pockets of, and personally I love hitting some old gold and just crying for days :-)

I felt you were a perfect fit right away, and I've got you on my list to bump up to @TribeSteemUp once the prices get back in order and I can start adding people again. Thanks for doing the work you're doing!

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Ha! Spending days crying is all too familiar!!!

Ah that's awesome news, thanks again :) Here was me semi worried id have a negative response to some of what i may write! Good ol' conditioning! ;)

I think this is summed up beautifully in the verse of a great Hindi blessing, that we perform at the beginning of each satsung, at my local ashram.
Jyota se jyota jagavo
Sataguru jyota se jyota jagavo
Mera antara timira mitavo
Sataguru jyota se jyota jagavo
Peace.

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Thank you! That certainly feels good to think that I'm aligned with some of the ancient teachings :-) Does that blessing have a name? If not I'll just translate the words, but I'd love to see if there is a specific translation for the whole piece.

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Yes, it is simply called Jyota se jyota jagavo.
I've found a translation for you here;
https://mahamantra.bandcamp.com/track/jyota-se-jyota
Peace.

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Awesome, thank you brother!

What a gorgeous post. I love your reference to the Upanishads, which I've been studying of late. It's funny you should mention sociopaths and your childhood - I was watching the most beautiful little doco we have here called Australian Story, and his story parellels yours. He was told he had a low IQ and was a sociopath and that defined him - he entered the forest in basic psychosis for years until he just had an ephiphany that it was him creating the world not the other way around - I mean, this guy had a tough life - and he stopped drinking and went back to school and now lecture in sociology after doing his PHD. The doco is here if you want to watch it - http://www.abc.net.au/austory/out-of-the-woods/10174310 - you might need a VPN but if you want a good story, this is it. xx

What a power post!
Your personal story is just inspiring Kenny.

Wonderfully put. I like how you mention the importance of cutting out certain music and food etc. People tend to poison their minds and bodies and then get cynical about the state of the world. It all starts with a choice to make it better and that starts with engagement with the positive. To treat everything we think or do as a step in a purposeful direction..

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Lots to think about here, the 4 types of people that the Buddha talks about, to the different types of lightworker and figuring out where we are all within this, for me both light and dark are needed, we can not be whole without the other. Yes balance is so important, lots to think about here xx

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We have some interesting similarities in our youths, though also some distinct differences. I think I came into the world as a lightworker by how you've defined the term here. But I also wondered at points in my teens if I was a sociopath. I think that really we are all both Christ and Hitler. Only by reconciling those two forces within us can we authentically bring out our gifts for this world.