Life art: identity

Born as the youngest of the 7, I grew up with a lot of people complaining about the upbringing of my family towards us. It's a childhood where violence is somewhat a normal phenomenon, where we could experience battering almost everyday.

As a tiny little kid, I managed to gain resilience and courage, but in the tiniest bit there's something within me that I noticed, I somehow feel like I am a girl trap in a boy's body.

In secret, whenever I'm alone, i try to wear my mom's bra and also applying her make up, in addition to that, I shaved my eyebrows. When my mom saw my brows:
she was like, "are you gay?"
I replied, "uhmm, no! Hell no!"
It was too freaking hilarious.
And so as i grew up, and became a teenager, I came to noticed that almost all of my bestfriends where girls, not to mention my gay besties. Anyways, i tried to question whether me being girly was caused by being a battered child, or maybe this is some kind of a defense mechanism where i see that girls are not being battered compared to boys, so a female personality out of envy became existent in me. Or maybe I'm just born like this. No one knows, perhaps, maybe God knows.

Now I am a professional nurse, haven't been into a sexual relationship before even romantic ones. I'm still feeling the thing, let's just call it, being gay. I am attracted to guys, and cut this, i think this the part where I have to introduce myself. I'm Leo, a 21-year old guy, who lives in Mindanao. Yeah, single since birth and I'm not a crossdresser(in contrary to what I said about wearing my mom's bra) anyways, this the start of my blogging journey. Hope you find me and my work interesting, there's still more to come. So watch out!